Now it's two themes

[dabro]

One theme is where I'm at Gods Judgment. The other theme is way to stigmatize to even discuss on here. I mean ppl who know me know I have had both the theme. I remember just having one and when it switched to Gods judgment theme I was like nothing can get worse than this.

Then I woke up today and felt like what if I had that first theme.. please I will not discuss it here because ppl will think I'm someone sick. Rather I have to just let it do its thing and hopefully I can try to get some help somewhere

 

[Solomons Porch]

Seek His face, blessings in Jesus name..............

 

[dabro]

I don't know. It's pretty scary and ever since the took me off klonopin I've struggled. Now I fear the worst. That I'm going to be locked up because I can't seem to break free of my obsessions. Please Lord take this away.

 

[dabro]

Screw it. It's Pocd. I'm not going to hide something I'm not. Just know a Pedo doesn't fear their going to hurt children. I hate this theme. Last time I had it was 08. Now I'm going through it all over again because of the new doctor.

What am I supposed to do? I'm scared I'm going to be locked up because they just don't want to deal with me. My dad is hard to live with. Right now I'm just scared. Not scared I'm going to lose it but lose my mind.

 

[brinny]

Praying for you, brother (((hug)))

 

[dabro]

Please Lord help me find a new doctor who will take up my case and treat me like a patient.

 

[brinny]

Praying that God steadies you and guides your every thought, word, and deed, and that His inexplicable grace supersedes ALL that is coming at you now, in this moment, and in the moments, and hours ahead. Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

 

[brinny]

God is faithful, my brother. Bless yer heart for pouring it all out to Him. KEEP pouring it out. Has not forgotten or rejected you. He KNOWS about ALL of what you are struggling with. He also knows that the enemy is attempting to party all over yer crumpled up soul. God KNOWS this. The enemy is LYING to you and giving you half-truths. It's what he does. God KNOWS this. TRUST Him. Continuing to pray for you, brother. (((hug)))

 

[dabro]

I'm sorry. I have gone through so much. My dad is always angry. I can't seem to catch a break. I'm tired of living in this situation. I feel I have no choice but to live here.


I'm so worn and tired. All I wanted was to date some woman. Fall in love and passionately tell the word of God. But, as things pregress I'm at a loss of word.


I fear I'm always going to be this way. Fearful that I'll never rise up to the position God called me because I go through so much adversity.

 

[FrankDux]

Your honesty is admirable, dabro. I'm sure that's horrible to face

I hope you find some relief

 

[dabro]

Thank so Frank. I hope you find strength also brother.