ffrankson, that is not a good Christian witness, but you have to understand that Christians are still human and still have struggles. God has called us His own, His children, and we have accepted His invitation to be in His family, but that doesn't mean that we are instantaneously perfect. He works on us, bit by bit, and it's like a construction zone, messy. I have noticed that as He changes me, other people's perceptions of me do not change as fast, and that is frustrating, because this change in me is constant. I am not the woman I was yesterday. I say all of that to let you in on this - it's a process.