Not the Christian I should be

[Captain_Tea]

In early December 2019 I nearly died of a heart attack.

 

[Carl Emerson]

Can you find a loving fellowship - God does not waste suffering - there is a reason for your being saved from death. He wants you to walk in a new day.

 

[Joy]

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[Captain_Tea]

Can you find a loving fellowship - God does not waste suffering - there is a reason for your being saved from death. He wants you to walk in a new day.

I am struggling to discover what that looks like. I am a member of a local church that has undergone a great deal of staff change in the last three years. I have been a bit reluctant to start over at a place I've been a member of for over a decade that now is quite different.

 

[Carl Emerson]

I am struggling to discover what that looks like. I am a member of a local church that has undergone a great deal of staff change in the last three years. I have been a bit reluctant to start over at a place I've been a member of for over a decade that now is quite different.

Yes, that can be quite tricky - I suggest prayer in the direction of getting the fellowship issue resolved would make sense...

 

[Captain_Tea]

Yes, that can be quite tricky - I suggest prayer in the direction of getting the fellowship issue resolved would make sense...

Agreed, You are helping me already. The trickiest part is how to get back into fellowship and get help without divulging my wife's indiscretion's. I'd like to keep that between God, her and myself. Here I am anonymous.

 

[Carl Emerson]

Could you pray together and agree about finding a loving church family with a healing environment that you can bathe in for a while and consolidate? Somewhere where you are not known?

 

[dqhall]

In early December 2019 I nearly died of a heart attack. Miraculously after being misdiagnosed by several doctors, a gastroenterologist called my primary care doctor cellphone to cellphone right there while in the room with me and told him I needed a stress test. ASAP! Sadly while miraculous intervention was happening right before my eyes, I found myself wishing for death. I knew my body was dying and I was ready to go be with the Lord. Against my secret wishes I went to the hospital and had that stress test and five emergency stents later I am very much alive. But here's the rub, I wish I would have died from what would have been natural causes at 46 yrs old. I spent several months on short term disability. Most of the time despairing of the life that Christ gave back to me. My wife couldn't handle my mental state and sought comfort in the britches of an old high school friend. Which made me despair all the more. Then Covid19 hit. My employer cut my insurance and laid me off forcing me to rely on unemployment and other government programs. Here it is two years and two jobs later. I have reconciled with my wife for the most part, though trust issues remain. I am sickly from my uncontrolled diabetes, a simple cold turns into a week off of work. I find myself still wondering why my God didn't just let me die and be with him. These last two years have been hell. I'm trying to be thankful for my life which He spared, but its difficult. I'm barely hanging on to my ability to get up and work everyday and to love my wife as myself and keep from slipping into despair all over again. Help Me Bretheren!

This book might help, “Prevent and Reverse Heart Disease” by Caldwell Esselstyn. He published his strict diet and cases of people who followed his advice whose coronary arteries became less blocked as confirmed by scans.
It requires a low fat, low cholesterol diet, without added sugar. Esselstyn includes vegetable oil in his definition of fat. I lost 14 lbs. this diet.

 

[Trusting in Him]

God has done something similar with me. I have had a heart attack and two strokes and the last stroke has left me crippled. I was always the guy who could cope with anything and now I have to rely upon God's strength to get me through day by day. I don't just have the forum name "Trusting in Him", but that is how I am to live day to day.

There is lots of us, who are like this and it does not means that any of us are likely to be the Christians, which we should be. I am also a work it progress and still learning what it means to walk humbly before him. God still has His plan for your life and mine. You will find like I have had to, that God wants to re-purpose your life acording to what He intends.

Wait on Him and trust Him, it's the best thing which you can do. "In all your ways acknowledge him and lean not unto your own understanding."

 

[Sketcher]

He gave you more time to make a positive difference in this world for his people. Use it well, any way you can. Every day you're still here is a day to improve.

"For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." - Ephesians 2:10

 

[BobRyan]

In early December 2019 I nearly died of a heart attack. Miraculously after being misdiagnosed by several doctors, a gastroenterologist called my primary care doctor cellphone to cellphone right there while in the room with me and told him I needed a stress test. ASAP! Sadly while miraculous intervention was happening right before my eyes, I found myself wishing for death. I knew my body was dying and I was ready to go be with the Lord. Against my secret wishes I went to the hospital and had that stress test and five emergency stents later I am very much alive. But here's the rub, I wish I would have died from what would have been natural causes at 46 yrs old. I spent several months on short term disability. Most of the time despairing of the life that Christ gave back to me. My wife couldn't handle my mental state and sought comfort in the britches of an old high school friend. Which made me despair all the more. Then Covid19 hit. My employer cut my insurance and laid me off forcing me to rely on unemployment and other government programs. Here it is two years and two jobs later. I have reconciled with my wife for the most part, though trust issues remain. I am sickly from my uncontrolled diabetes, a simple cold turns into a week off of work. I find myself still wondering why my God didn't just let me die and be with him. These last two years have been hell. I'm trying to be thankful for my life which He spared, but its difficult. I'm barely hanging on to my ability to get up and work everyday and to love my wife as myself and keep from slipping into despair all over again. Help Me Bretheren!

Am praying for you.

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I decided to take my health more seriously this year - put myself on an exercise-at-home program lost weight, healthier diet and my doctor took me off of a number of meds recently which was a big shot in the arm in terms of outlook and interacting positively with others.

1 Cor 6 says not to destroy our body - and as Christians we need to do whatever we can to show respect for those resources/gifts God has given us even if things are breaking at the moment.

God will not take a grumpy soul on Earth and make them a cheerful one in heaven - but He will take a grumpy soul on Earth - offer them the born-again experience , the fruit of the Spirit including Love, Joy, Peace, Patience and long suffering - in the here-and-now.