Not sure where to post this, but I need help...

[konradpankoff]

Thank you everyone, I'm still going through a lot. I guess I should get tested. I feel more okay about it now, thanks to you guys!

 

[Silly Uncle Wayne]

I'm here because I've been through a lot emotionally. I'm currently in a relationship with a girl that insists on having an open relationship, and right now she's seeing other men -- often having intercourse within my presence -- while I choose to remain faithful to her. Initially I was disgusted by this, but there is a dark side of me that is quite okay with it, and I actually enjoying being a cuck. I'm currently facilitating it! But at the same time, this has left me feeling empty. The sexual pleasure I feel from seeing her with other men doesn't last. My soul feels like it's been crushed, but I don't feel any pain. I've thought about ending the relationship, but I still love her and enjoy this relationship. I've decided to turn to God to figure out what's wrong with me. Where do I start?

Some people drink to forget. But when they sober up they still have whatever problem beset the before, so they either go and get another drink or they start dealing with the problem.

It is clear from your writings that the pleasure you get when your partner is having sex with someone else, is fleeting and you it is not worth the effect it has on the rest of your life.

Unless you do something now, your life will be lived for those momentary pleasures that will become less and less frequent.

Deal with it NOW before it becomes too hard.

 

[Godistruth1]

I'm here because I've been through a lot emotionally. I'm currently in a relationship with a girl that insists on having an open relationship, and right now she's seeing other men -- often having intercourse within my presence -- while I choose to remain faithful to her. Initially I was disgusted by this, but there is a dark side of me that is quite okay with it, and I actually enjoying being a cuck. I'm currently facilitating it! But at the same time, this has left me feeling empty. The sexual pleasure I feel from seeing her with other men doesn't last. My soul feels like it's been crushed, but I don't feel any pain. I've thought about ending the relationship, but I still love her and enjoy this relationship. I've decided to turn to God to figure out what's wrong with me. Where do I start?

Honesty you are in a relationship because you get to have a girl. That's the fact. From my experience we think we will never love anyone else other than the one we are in love with currently but that's a deception. Get married and once you have your wife ask God to guide you and increase the love between you and your wife. You need to tackle this logically not emotionally!

 

[Tolworth John]

I've decided to turn to God to figure out what's wrong with me. Where do I start?

A couple of option, check out the christianityexplored web site for a church running this course and sign up.
It will let you discuss Christianity in a nonthreatening, non commital enviroment.

or check out the web site of the churches in your area and start attending the one you think is most challenging.

The girlfriend, drop her, you don't know what std's she'll catch or whether she'll blaime you for someone elses child.
Ask that she confirms that she isn't infected after every liasons and that she isn't pregnant.