Not Much, but this is my story.....

[Tawny]

Here is my story, I have posted bits and pieces but this is the first time I have put it all down.

I was born to parents who believe but are not practising Christians, I went to Sunday school as a child and was still dithering about what I truly believed as a teenager. As I grew into adulthood, I kept turning my back, but somehow I kept getting called back to my faith. I moved in with my ex when I was 19, and I thought I knew it all (as you do) but it all went wrong, one night he beat up me so badly I left him. Once again I turned from my faith as I thought to myself that I had been a good person, had been to church regularly, had tried to live my life as a Christian, and the Lord had let this happen to me so what was the point.

From this point I went through a very stupid phase, I would go out get drunk, do stupid things and basically act like a complete Jezebel. At 23 I fell pregnant with my beautiful and perfect daughter. This was the wake up call I needed, I cleaned up my act moved back in with my parents and finally started to grow up.

During my pregnancy, I felt the pulling of my faith again and turned once again to the Lord for help and support. I started regularly going to church again and I felt really good. My daughter was born in 1999 and I called her Kirsty. I had her Christened in my church and was supremely happy. Kirsty and I used to attend church every week until one particular Sunday. As I was leaving the church with my baby in my arms one of the old women from my village turned to another one and said "I cannot believe the vicar lets b*st*rds like that into our church"

I was hurt and deeply shocked at this remark and vowed then and there never to step foot in that Church again. Again I turned from my faith as I thought that God should not have allowed the women to talk like that about me.

After this I went to a huge Christian festival near my house and for the first time experienced worship and praise that was fun. I began attending my local Baptist Church and was Baptised on 23/9/01. Although I now worship at home I know that I will never turn from my faith again. I now realise that I was being tested and I was testing God, and all the time he was there for me, all I had to do was open my eyes.

My story isn't much or dramatic but hey that's me!

Blessings and love to you all

Nicky

 

[Ssarl]

I don't see what about your story fails to be dramatic, or why it's necessary for every testimony to be a soap opera! (And I say that as somebody whose testimony really, *really* is). It encouraged me to hear that you've come back to Christ after your 'stupid phase'. My own derailment happened only last year and I'm still recovering (heck, a major, life-changing event happened in church just last night...).

I know what it's like not to feel welcomed in church. I'm finally reaching the point where I have some idea what's wrong with me - I'm on the verge of schizophrenia, which is something very few people understand. It's rather obvious that there are people in church who are scared of me. All I can say is that not everybody's like that, and it is possible to find real friends in Christ who are more mature and accepting than that. I flat out refuse to stop going to my church because of one person's opinion - they'd have to drag me out kicking and screaming and pumped full of elephant tranquilisers. And I'd still come back the next day. I come there to meet God, not to fit with people's flawed views of what a Christian should be.

I know that God's going to do amazing things in you. Trust in Him and miracles really do happen. God bless.

Your brother in Christ,
Andrew

 

[Tekoa]

That was an awesome testimony! It really blessed me. I know in my own faith I turned from God at times when people hurt me, but I found out that turning from God when people let me down is hurting God, He says He is always there for me and His ways are not my ways. I now have learned to put my expectations in God and not people cause people will let me down, and sometimes not even meaning too. So hang in there and keep your faith in Him and He will NEVER let you down.

hugs
Tekoa

 

[ysl_75]

Nicky, God knows what you went thru and now He is blessing you by giving you peace and joy...God bless you and your daughter!

 

[Tawny]

Thank you all for your kind words. Like I said it is not much, but yes it did hurt when they said that about her. I now know that it is daft to turn from God. All you have to do is ask and he is there. Its a shame other people don't see it like that though.....

 

[mannysee]

it sure is daft to turn from God. Hey, and tawny owls are cool!

 

[Tawny]

I know that now, But we all have to learn.

I love twany owls too, I am a Brownie leader and thats what the girls used to call me until I became Brown Owl. I guess it just stuck!

 

[smooze]

old women from my village turned to another one and said "I cannot believe the vicar lets b*st*rds like that into our church"

Hi tawny this passage is true to us all

old women from my village turned to another one and said "I cannot believe the vicar lets b*st*rds like that into our church"

Hi tawny this passage is true to us all

who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus who died-more than that,who was raised to life-is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
NO,in all these things we are more than conquerors through HIM who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus who died-more than that,who was raised to life-is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
NO,in all these things we are more than conquerors through HIM who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

 

[lovenourishes]

Blessed are those poor in the spirits. Pray that you are ever in thirst for Christ and wish you and your daughter grow in Christ..

 

[bfly]

Here is my story, I have posted bits and pieces but this is the first time I have put it all down.

I was born to parents who believe but are not practising Christians, I went to Sunday school as a child and was still dithering about what I truly believed as a teenager. As I grew into adulthood, I kept turning my back, but somehow I kept getting called back to my faith. I moved in with my ex when I was 19, and I thought I knew it all (as you do) but it all went wrong, one night he beat up me so badly I left him. Once again I turned from my faith as I thought to myself that I had been a good person, had been to church regularly, had tried to live my life as a Christian, and the Lord had let this happen to me so what was the point.

From this point I went through a very stupid phase, I would go out get drunk, do stupid things and basically act like a complete Jezebel. At 23 I fell pregnant with my beautiful and perfect daughter. This was the wake up call I needed, I cleaned up my act moved back in with my parents and finally started to grow up.

During my pregnancy, I felt the pulling of my faith again and turned once again to the Lord for help and support. I started regularly going to church again and I felt really good. My daughter was born in 1999 and I called her Kirsty. I had her Christened in my church and was supremely happy. Kirsty and I used to attend church every week until one particular Sunday. As I was leaving the church with my baby in my arms one of the old women from my village turned to another one and said "I cannot believe the vicar lets b*st*rds like that into our church"

I was hurt and deeply shocked at this remark and vowed then and there never to step foot in that Church again. Again I turned from my faith as I thought that God should not have allowed the women to talk like that about me.

After this I went to a huge Christian festival near my house and for the first time experienced worship and praise that was fun. I began attending my local Baptist Church and was Baptised on 23/9/01. Although I now worship at home I know that I will never turn from my faith again. I now realise that I was being tested and I was testing God, and all the time he was there for me, all I had to do was open my eyes.

My story isn't much or dramatic but hey that's me!

Blessings and love to you all

Nicky

God Bless you...........