- Jun 18, 2020
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- Baptist
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- Single
Hello,
Lately I’ve been reading through the Old Testament, specifically about the Israelites being led by God through the wilderness. I’ve noticed that I relate to the Israelites in many ways.
I often struggle with doubting my salvation (and mental illness). However, I think my primary problem is that I am a lover of self. I find that I identify with the first generation of Israelites that didn’t make it into the Promised Land, as opposed to the 2nd generation that entered into the Promised Land. I find that I do not settle for the manna (Christ alone), but that I desire more (feelings, assurance, signs, etc).
I often, like the first generation, forget what God has done (the many blessings in my life, and, of course, forgiveness through Christ), and often yearn for Egypt. I do not trust God enough to lead me into the Promised Land. I am fearful of the obstacles in the way to the Promised Land, and don’t trust in God to bring me to where He wants me to be.
I ask for prayers for the strength and the will to choose to follow Christ, even when the feeling isn’t there, or even when my feelings are completely against following Him. To acknowledge that He is worthy of my praise and life, regardless of where I spend eternity. To sorrow over sin itself and not just the consequences thereof. Also, to trust in Christ alone, and not anything I can do on my part to earn grace. I thank you for your prayers.
Lately I’ve been reading through the Old Testament, specifically about the Israelites being led by God through the wilderness. I’ve noticed that I relate to the Israelites in many ways.
I often struggle with doubting my salvation (and mental illness). However, I think my primary problem is that I am a lover of self. I find that I identify with the first generation of Israelites that didn’t make it into the Promised Land, as opposed to the 2nd generation that entered into the Promised Land. I find that I do not settle for the manna (Christ alone), but that I desire more (feelings, assurance, signs, etc).
I often, like the first generation, forget what God has done (the many blessings in my life, and, of course, forgiveness through Christ), and often yearn for Egypt. I do not trust God enough to lead me into the Promised Land. I am fearful of the obstacles in the way to the Promised Land, and don’t trust in God to bring me to where He wants me to be.
I ask for prayers for the strength and the will to choose to follow Christ, even when the feeling isn’t there, or even when my feelings are completely against following Him. To acknowledge that He is worthy of my praise and life, regardless of where I spend eternity. To sorrow over sin itself and not just the consequences thereof. Also, to trust in Christ alone, and not anything I can do on my part to earn grace. I thank you for your prayers.