Marc and Heather, THANKS! Marc, I really identify with the questions concerning the coffee pot, etc., and how I fear a disaster if I left it on, etc. The truth is that we can check those things, but God's Word is where we have to depend to "check" our salvation. My greatest problem seems to lie in that, even when I say, "Okay God, I may not feel you and I'm even afraid that I'm not sincere, but I choose to trust you". Then, I just don't seem to respond to life as a Christian should. My son even asked me one time if I was really a Christian because he said I didn't act like one. I try, but it's like a vicious cycle in my life. I can get angry over the least little thing and not know how to deal with it. What scares me the most are when things I've prayed seem to be answered in a way that show me I'm not right. I know that Christians don't always experience the same level of peace, but the time that I angrily told God I hated Him and said if I was a Christian, why didn't I have any peace. That very morning at church the preacher entitled his sermon, No Jesus, No Peace. Know Jesus, Know Peace. And afterward, had an alter call. I know you've answered me in the past about this Heather, but when I asked God, it sure seemed as if He was answering me back that that's why I personally didn't have the peace I sought. The only thing I know to do is to, as I've done before, tell God I don't understand why this happens, but I just choose Him. I do seem to do better when I say this. Thanks again everyone.
Rebecca