No Love For God

[LukewarmLex]

I cannot honestly say I love God. I feel like my only motive for pursuing him is in attempt to get saved from hellfire.

Instead, I have built up resentment for him in my heart. I feel like he has selfishly cursed humans into a life of suffering so he can demonstrate his greatness. I feel like it is unfair for him to allow innocents to not only live amongst evil but to also be harmed by evil to begin with. It appears that he is forcing us to 'play or perish' when we never asked for this (as far as I can tell).

I've asked many times that he changes my perspective on him but I get no answer. I just grow more bitter, especially when fear overtakes me. I ask that he helps me hate all my sin as much as he does but I get nothing. I don't know where to begin if I don't even have a sincere desire for him or a genuine hatred for all sin.

 

[Another Lazarus]

I cannot honestly say I love God. I feel like my only motive for pursuing him is in attempt to get saved from hellfire.

Instead, I have built up resentment for him in my heart. I feel like he has selfishly cursed humans into a life of suffering so he can demonstrate his greatness. I feel like it is unfair for him to allow innocents to not only live amongst evil but to also be harmed by evil to begin with. It appears that he is forcing us to 'play or perish' when we never asked for this (as far as I can tell).

I've asked many times that he changes my perspective on him but I get no answer. I just grow more bitter, especially when fear overtakes me. I ask that he helps me hate all my sin as much as he does but I get nothing. I don't know where to begin if I don't even have a sincere desire for him or a genuine hatred for all sin.

May be this will make you see how Father loves the world :
Father sacrifice his own son for others

 

[LukewarmLex]

May be this will make you see how Father loves the world :
Father sacrifice his own son for others

Maybe it's because my idea of love is skewed but I don't see what's loving about unnecessarily letting all this suffering play out to begin with. If you foresaw the disastrous future of your own child before conceiving them, would you still go on to create them?

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

Maybe it's because my idea of love is skewed but I don't see what's loving about unnecessarily letting all this suffering play out to begin with. If you foresaw the disastrous future of your own child before conceiving them, would you still go on to create them?

I struggle with this too, sometimes it seems we just have scripts already written out for us.

 

[Linus]

Praying for you in the name of Jesus Christ. Thank You Lord!

 

[LukewarmLex]

I struggle with this too, sometimes it seems we just have scripts already written out for us.

Eh. I personally don't ever think that. I just think God was able to see what we'd choose to do.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

Eh. I personally don't ever think that. I just think God was able to see what we'd choose to do.

Yeah. Hopefully in dead wrong.

 

[FireDragon76]

This is what Luther meant by dwelling on "the hidden God" rather than the "revealed God", Jesus Christ.

I would just say it's a good thing you are being honest about what is bothering you spiritually and you can recognize it as a problem. Taking it to Jesus in prayer, ask him to teach you to be his disciple. That is the only way to really respond to him and to keep our faith. Taking "as He did, this sinful world as it is, and not as I would have it" (Reinhold Niebuhr, Serenity Prayer), because we have to be Jesus' hands and feet in this world.

 

[Tolworth John]

Honesty towards God is esential in building a relationship with God.
May I surgest that you look at the theology about suffering.

As I understand it, God didn't trap Adam and Eve, he gave them a clear choice, to obey a simple command or not to obey. Unfortunetly for us they choice to disobey and tha consquences of that are what causes suffering today.

I suggest looking into this and any other questions you may have for the simple reason God won't just magicly change you. You have to understand correctly before you can beging to change.

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

May Christ be your light, strength, and peace

 

[rockytopva]

Father I pray blessings on this request and spiritual strength in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the 1:15PM bbnradio.org Family Altar program.

 

[LukewarmLex]

Honesty towards God is esential in building a relationship with God.
May I surgest that you look at the theology about suffering.

As I understand it, God didn't trap Adam and Eve, he gave them a clear choice, to obey a simple command or not to obey. Unfortunetly for us they choice to disobey and tha consquences of that are what causes suffering today.

I suggest looking into this and any other questions you may have for the simple reason God won't just magicly change you. You have to understand correctly before you can beging to change.

Oh no, I'm very open and honest with the Lord. I already understand why suffering exist and that just doesn't seem fair to me. Why should we have to suffer because of two people's choice to disobey? Why should humans have to suffer so God can prove a point? Or display his greatness? How is that fair? I don't think Adam and Eve got trapped. I think every born to them got trapped.

 

[brinny]

Praying for you (((hug)))