hey i'm brand new to this forum, i havn't read anyone else's posts yet because i'm feeling a bit emotional right now and don't wanna cry!
i'm not sure what i have to gain by posting on here but i kinda feel compelled to.
a few years ago i started self-harming. i hate blood so was too chicken to ever cut myself so it was lighters and candles for me. i actually stopped completely when i became a Christian (just over a year ago) but recently, in the past few weeks, i've been feeling really depressed when i'm alone. this isn't unusual considering my history but since august i had been feeling really good in general and even now, while good things are still happening to me whenever i'm by myself i can't focus on them. the only time i feel good is when i'm praying but i can't close my eyes and focus 100% on God every second of the day!
so yeah i've been thinking a lot about hurting myself again and a few nights ago i did. i just feel really confused and i feel i can't talk to anyone about it. main reason for this is cos i have had a lot of bad things ahppen to me in the past and my friends have all been there so much for me already i don't want to burden them more or for them to feel sorry for me
wow ok i've written a lot sorry! i'm not really sure what i should be saying on this forum but yeah as i said i saw it and felt the need to. if anyone has got any space on their prayer lists! could you maybe reply or PM me. i think i really could do with someone i don't know who is a Christian to talk to.
thanks
clare
i'm not sure what i have to gain by posting on here but i kinda feel compelled to.
a few years ago i started self-harming. i hate blood so was too chicken to ever cut myself so it was lighters and candles for me. i actually stopped completely when i became a Christian (just over a year ago) but recently, in the past few weeks, i've been feeling really depressed when i'm alone. this isn't unusual considering my history but since august i had been feeling really good in general and even now, while good things are still happening to me whenever i'm by myself i can't focus on them. the only time i feel good is when i'm praying but i can't close my eyes and focus 100% on God every second of the day!
so yeah i've been thinking a lot about hurting myself again and a few nights ago i did. i just feel really confused and i feel i can't talk to anyone about it. main reason for this is cos i have had a lot of bad things ahppen to me in the past and my friends have all been there so much for me already i don't want to burden them more or for them to feel sorry for me
wow ok i've written a lot sorry! i'm not really sure what i should be saying on this forum but yeah as i said i saw it and felt the need to. if anyone has got any space on their prayer lists! could you maybe reply or PM me. i think i really could do with someone i don't know who is a Christian to talk to.
thanks
clare
