New Journey

[Mayflower1]

Hello again! I new chapter in the life of Lily00 has just begun. I have to change counselors again. I really liked this one the most but she just wants the best for me. She said that she can not keep counseling me because she believes that I have dissociation and she doesn't know anything about it except for a very little bit. I am really not too sure what it is but she explained that I go into a world of my own and that the brain is a circle or something and it split in half and that the circuits only go in one half. I don't know. I am just so scared about it but I know that with each counselor I am getting closer to finding the questions I need. I just want to live again. I respect her honesty but I have to see someone about an hour away from where I live and then I don't even know if I am going to be able to afford it.... It is just so complicated. I hate this. She said that if I don't have dissociation then I can come back to her but what I am afraid of is that I do live in my own little world most of the time and I really believe I do have this because it would explain a lot. The only thing is it isn't safe like she said that most of the worlds are... Magic, Caliper, I hate going into it but it is like I can't stop going there because the pain I guess is addicting. She said that I will probably have to take medicine and I really don't want to but if I can get rid of this world I will try anything... I hate this because these characters have been around since I was six years old and they are always tormenting me. I just get so tired of it. She also said something about the personalities but she said even even if I have them it doesn't mean they are demonic in any way. I just want to know what is going on! Lily00

 

[AnointedPoetess]

Wow lily! that sounds very stressful.. i'll be prayin' for ya and im here if u ever need to talk! *hugs*

 

[goldenviolet]

deffinate not deamonic. it's the body's way of protecting itself (for people who learn do this)and young people have very big imaginations. i took classes on it.

anyhow! more importantly is getting a counselor who is not only understanding but neat to work with.

Dear Father, please bless lily's situation.... financially, transportation, and the relationship and personailty/beliefs of her therepist. Father i pray that your hands and direction are on every part of this situation. please comfort lily and give her hope and patience to endure getting settled in. inb Jesus' name, amen.