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[Candyca]

Hello everyone! I'm hoping I can find some peace and support here. I am a fairly new christian, about 2 yrs. After having my first son, I can't explain it, but I had this overwhelming desire to come back to the church. As a child, I was raised in a Luthern household, went to church every Sunday, but as soon as I moved out on my own, God became less of a priority as it seems to happen with a lot of teenagers. Anyway,years later, after having my son, I felt this sudden strong pull to come back to the church. I found a church I loved, and started attending regularly. My husband was raised Catholic, but never attended church regularly. I was so happy with this new found passion for Christ I had again. I wanted so badly to share it with someone. I asked my husband to please come to church with me and he said no. He has never come with me. I should tell you that before kids, we were definitely living an un-christian lifestyle. Drinking, partying, nothing I'm proud of at all. My husband still wants to live like that but I refuse. He tells me now that I'm a "goody goody", rolls his eyes and makes sighing noises if he sees me reading my bible, he even got upset when he heard my son watching the Veggie Tales video that I bought him when he heard a quote from the bible. He also checks out other women in front of me and makes open comments as if he his attempting to make me jealous or try and tell me he is going to leave if I don't start looking/acting more like them. Church is a really sore subject with us. I sometimes feel sad when I go to church and see a husband and wife together with the husband having his arm lovingly around his wife and see the joy they are sharing in their time together at church. I wish I had that. Tonight we got into a huge fight, and this is why I sought out and found this forum. We started argueing over something stupid, and it started escalating. He started using the "f" word with every other word in front of our 3 yr. old son and I begged him to stop. That made him do it even more. He was screaming "f" that and "f" you so I grabbed my son and we sat in the backyard until I heard the bedroom door slam and he went to bed. I just get so sad about the situation I don't know what do sometimes besides pray. It just can be so difficult. Sorry to ramble, I'm just hoping to find some people in similar situations and share advice and prayers.

God Bless,

Candyca

 

[selune]

My prayers are with you. I hope that God will guide your husband home and that your husband's heart will open to God's word. Peace to you.

 

[optimist]

I am brand new here also and am a new Christian. I can see myself in your message. I just wanted to say hello and say that I will be thinking about you. I have very limited time on this computer right now or I would write much more, hopefully later today or tomorrow. Just wanted to say hi to you.

 

[SeraphWolf79]

Hi Candyca! As I was reading your post, my eyes filled with tears as I thought of what you must be going through. Please don't let your husband's remarks keep you from going to church and devoting time with Him. Just think how overjoyed you've made the Lord for letting Him back into your life!

It's very important to teach your children about the bible, and you're doing the right thing in doing so. Stand your guard - don't let your husband win on this issue. For what's most important in this life is to live for Him and spread the Word to others who are willing to listen. I'll pray for your husband and hope that God can turn him in the right direction.

 

[christlover$$]

Your husband sounds like mine used to be...I started going back to church when my oldest son was a baby(13 years ago) and when I would get home from church, he would start on me, fussing and telling me that I needed to be at home...I would beg him to come to church with me, which btw, he has still never been to church with me, but I know he will one day...anyway, I finally quit going to church and then I started going again when my youngest son was born, and he started on me again...I finally told him that I would not quit going because he told me to and that I was not going to hell with him even though I loved him very much, he wasn't worth that, I told him that I would continue to pray for him and hope that one day he will come with me...I have been going regularly since and he has quit fussing...one night I came home from church and he was watching TBN(Christian channel) and he watched it til about 2am that night and he has read the whole book of Revelation...now this is something I would have never thought he would do and I see God is really working on his heart...he asks me tons of questions and I answer as honestly as I can..I had a vision a while back where me and my sons were walking the streets of gold in Heaven and my husband was not in it and I told him about it and I could tell that it shocked him...I have faith that one day he will tell me to wait up cause he is coming with me
I do know what you are going through and I will keep you in my prayers...please don't give up and please please don't quit going to church because of your husband...satan would win then and I know you don't want that...just keep praying


sorry, this is in my sons name...my name on here is bamagirl