New here and relapsed :(

[SullyMSU]

Hello all,
I am new to this site and looking for some support and to talk to people that understand what I am going through. I have been severely depressed and started cutting in July. I started therapy and antidepressants and was doing good for awhile but I relapsed last night. My best friend had this long conversation with me about how I too negative on myself and he is sick of hearing it along with everyone else. I basically hate everything about myself so all he ever hears is "I'm so fat", "I'm so stupid," "I'm so ugly." So after this conversation I was crying and very upset so I cut. I never cut deep enough to need stitches or go to the hospital but I still did it. Everyone thinks I am stupid for doing it and that I can 'just stop it." I don't think they get how hard it is.

 

[ChristInAction]

Its so hard for people outside this to understand.
Give them time but try to find someone that can help, like an older person from church.
If you need someone I'm always here, pm me.

Hang in there.
Keep fighting, you can do this.
Ally xox

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Welcome to our forum. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I do understand how difficult it can be to stop self-harm, but with help we can get better and recover. It sounds like you are getting help and while we never want to relapse, sometimes it happens.

I hope you'll get back up and start doing what has been good and has helped.