- Dec 14, 2022
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- Country
- United States
- Gender
- Female
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
I'm new to Christianity. 21. In coming into new life; God has taught me that the devil plants seeds in areas we're too prideful to admit that we don't know all about.
For me, over the last few months, I've realized that the area my seeds of weeds have been planted is throughout the unmapped self image.
To be friends with the world before God truly turns you into a shell for unhomed spirits.
I've been too prideful to share my full testimony with those around me. It's been putting out my flame. Hence, I wanted to put it here.
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At one time, my life was filled with addictions. From age 5 I was addicted to masturbating, not having God fearing authorities in my life. From age 9 I was addicted to wallowing in self doubt. By the time I hit 14, I'd fallen fully into hibernation, sleeping full summers of my childhood away. Building myself upon things people around me liked, I feared being myself. After graduating high school, I fell into New Age teachings. They give you just enough truth to believe; but not enough to ever help you progress. They flame into your pride, greed.. and shackle you. By having all these addictions by 20.. Marijuana, nicotine, sex... I was never satisfied. I became lazy and lost, stopped going to college.
But then, after realizing I'd been living with an incubus for a year (the hard way), I began to pray without ceasing. I would pour my heart out to Our Father. My grandma passed. While I was mourning, alone in the back of a parking lot.. a woman came to my car to comfort me. God's love poured through her. He didn't stop there, reminding me every day I was loved and there was hope through his son, my savior, Jesus Christ. I realized that all of my friends had bonded with me over unhealthy habits. All those who "loved" me only would look for my scars. Isn't that a weird way to love?
He saved me, so that I could be reborn through him, and (as undeserving as I am) that I would share my testimony and that I'd have a chance at a better life, through the ways of our King of Peace. Now, through learning about Jesus and being eager to sense his presence, I run full speed at my goal of fully welcoming Jesus into my heart, and letting all ways of my old self be put to death.
For me, over the last few months, I've realized that the area my seeds of weeds have been planted is throughout the unmapped self image.
To be friends with the world before God truly turns you into a shell for unhomed spirits.
I've been too prideful to share my full testimony with those around me. It's been putting out my flame. Hence, I wanted to put it here.
_____________
At one time, my life was filled with addictions. From age 5 I was addicted to masturbating, not having God fearing authorities in my life. From age 9 I was addicted to wallowing in self doubt. By the time I hit 14, I'd fallen fully into hibernation, sleeping full summers of my childhood away. Building myself upon things people around me liked, I feared being myself. After graduating high school, I fell into New Age teachings. They give you just enough truth to believe; but not enough to ever help you progress. They flame into your pride, greed.. and shackle you. By having all these addictions by 20.. Marijuana, nicotine, sex... I was never satisfied. I became lazy and lost, stopped going to college.
But then, after realizing I'd been living with an incubus for a year (the hard way), I began to pray without ceasing. I would pour my heart out to Our Father. My grandma passed. While I was mourning, alone in the back of a parking lot.. a woman came to my car to comfort me. God's love poured through her. He didn't stop there, reminding me every day I was loved and there was hope through his son, my savior, Jesus Christ. I realized that all of my friends had bonded with me over unhealthy habits. All those who "loved" me only would look for my scars. Isn't that a weird way to love?
He saved me, so that I could be reborn through him, and (as undeserving as I am) that I would share my testimony and that I'd have a chance at a better life, through the ways of our King of Peace. Now, through learning about Jesus and being eager to sense his presence, I run full speed at my goal of fully welcoming Jesus into my heart, and letting all ways of my old self be put to death.