I found this on the Devotional forum (joy & strength) the more I read it the more clarity I received.
"THE LOVING HEART WHICH SEEKS TO OFFER ALL, EVEN DISAPPOINTMENTS AND VEXATIONS WHICH TOUCH THE TENDEREST PLACES, TO GOD, WILL BE MORE LIKELY TO GROW IN GENEROSITY OF SPIRIT THAN ONE WHO BEARS GRUDGINGLY WHAT CANNOT BE AVERTED"
H.L. Sidney Lear
"THE LOVING HEART WHICH SEEKS TO OFFER ALL, EVEN DISAPPOINTMENTS AND VEXATIONS WHICH TOUCH THE TENDEREST PLACES, TO GOD, WILL BE MORE LIKELY TO GROW IN GENEROSITY OF SPIRIT THAN ONE WHO BEARS GRUDGINGLY WHAT CANNOT BE AVERTED"
H.L. Sidney Lear