Lately, I have been feeling like there is no future for me now. I have been considering killing myself, I don't want to die but I don't want to live either. Sometimes I think that it would be better to kill myself but the thought of going to Hell stops me. I am so tired of myself and I think my mum is too, she knows that I am depressed and self loathing and is fed up with it. She even suggested me taking all of her anti depressants and succeeding this time (I tried to kill myself before but it didn't work, that was three years ago and I thought I had gotten away from that but obv not). Why can people be so cruel? :o
-
Starting today August 7th, 2024, in order to post in the Married Couples, Courting Couples, or Singles forums, you will not be allowed to post if you have your Marital status designated as private. Announcements will be made in the respective forums as well but please note that if yours is currently listed as Private, you will need to submit a ticket in the Support Area to have yours changed.
Need your prayers so much, please.
- Thread starter Tinkerbell33
- Start date
jesuslovesme54
Veteran
Please don't listen to your mum. You are one of God's children and He loves you. Can you talk to a pastor or something? I'm here also if you need to talk. I'm praying for you sister and I know the Lord will answer and I thank Him for it. God Bless
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Upvote
0
Thanks for praying, so hard to keep going on when you feel worthless and incapable. I don't have a pastor to talk to because I don't go to church.
Upvote
0
jesuslovesme54
Veteran
Would you feel comfortable talking to someone on CF? There are many women on here who would talk to you and also the "ask a chaplain" section. You are not worthless or incapable. 
Upvote
0
Hi
so how you going now? My husband of 23 years died 5 weeks ago tomorrow. He was only 46 so I can understand a little of how you feel in wanting to leave this world. but i know I'm here for a reason and thats to help others to get to know Jesus. Do you know Him? I take it from your scriptures on your post that you do. Can i suggest you read those scriptures again...look hard at them. read them slowly. They are the life you need. They will give you the worth you are looking for.
relax. life isnt as hard as we think it is. Jesus truly understands everything you're going through and he will use these feelings in the future for you to help other girls. Dont throw suicide around as if its a threat. its a horrible cruel act that not only destroys the one who does it but also all those around and the medical staff etc. Please......take the LIFE God has given you and use it for him. Find a church, get in with the youth and start to love who God created you to be. Anything else is just crap!
Take care, you'll make it. i know because I did!! Love ya
so how you going now? My husband of 23 years died 5 weeks ago tomorrow. He was only 46 so I can understand a little of how you feel in wanting to leave this world. but i know I'm here for a reason and thats to help others to get to know Jesus. Do you know Him? I take it from your scriptures on your post that you do. Can i suggest you read those scriptures again...look hard at them. read them slowly. They are the life you need. They will give you the worth you are looking for.
relax. life isnt as hard as we think it is. Jesus truly understands everything you're going through and he will use these feelings in the future for you to help other girls. Dont throw suicide around as if its a threat. its a horrible cruel act that not only destroys the one who does it but also all those around and the medical staff etc. Please......take the LIFE God has given you and use it for him. Find a church, get in with the youth and start to love who God created you to be. Anything else is just crap!
Take care, you'll make it. i know because I did!! Love ya
Upvote
0
Dear, dear Becky (((((hug)))))) I have often asked myself why people are so cruel. The pat answer is because they are hurting themselves in some way, but that does not make it any less painful to put up with. This song is for you:
Upvote
0
- Dec 10, 2003
- 23,896
- 9,864
- Country
- Australia
- Gender
- Male
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
Becky, you are a much-loved and valuable child of God.
I hope you can find someone -- a pastor, a doctor, or a counsellor -- to talk to about this.
For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Eph 3:14-21)
I hope you can find someone -- a pastor, a doctor, or a counsellor -- to talk to about this.
For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Eph 3:14-21)
Upvote
0
chosenpath
Senior Veteran
Abba Father,
I kneel before you now as I did so many years ago in anguish but this time for Becky. You know there was a time I said take me Lord I don't want to live anymore.
Thank you God for leading me to an understanding that actually what was happening was the old self was dying, but because I was still bound to the physical I disregarded the spiritual birth. Help Becky shed her past trangressions and walk boldly into a new life. Through Jesus Christ our Savior. Amen!!!
Romans 6:4
Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.
Romans 6:11
Likewise you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I kneel before you now as I did so many years ago in anguish but this time for Becky. You know there was a time I said take me Lord I don't want to live anymore.
Thank you God for leading me to an understanding that actually what was happening was the old self was dying, but because I was still bound to the physical I disregarded the spiritual birth. Help Becky shed her past trangressions and walk boldly into a new life. Through Jesus Christ our Savior. Amen!!!
Romans 6:4
Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.
Romans 6:11
Likewise you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Upvote
0
Thank you everyone for replying and praying for me. I knew that I would find a lot of supportive people on this forum and I am grateful that you are here.
I feel lifted by your prayers, they are definately working. I started changing parts of my attitude and feel better for it already.
God Bless you all!
I feel lifted by your prayers, they are definately working. I started changing parts of my attitude and feel better for it already.
God Bless you all!
Upvote
0
Inkachu
Bursting with fruit flavor!
- Jan 31, 2008
- 35,357
- 4,220
- Gender
- Female
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Married
- Politics
- US-Others
Oh Becky darlin', I'm so sorry to see you hurting like this.
PLEASE don't hesitate to email me, anytime, about anything. I don't care if it's just ranting and raving, you need to reach out right now, don't hold things in. And DON'T hurt yourself! You're a beautiful, smart, funny, charming, warm, friendly young woman, with an AMAZING future ahead of you. Don't let a dark time in your life make you believe it will ALWAYS be dark.
I've suffered with depression and cutting before, so I know somewhat how you feel. Trust me, keeping it to yourself is the worst thing you can do.
If you like, I can give you the email address of my church. They are the warmest, most loving people you will ever meet. I'm sorry I can't do anything in person right now, but please know that my heart and my thoughts are close to you. PLEASE email me or PM me without hesitation.
I love ya Beck, yer my lil kindred spirit.
~Vicky
PLEASE don't hesitate to email me, anytime, about anything. I don't care if it's just ranting and raving, you need to reach out right now, don't hold things in. And DON'T hurt yourself! You're a beautiful, smart, funny, charming, warm, friendly young woman, with an AMAZING future ahead of you. Don't let a dark time in your life make you believe it will ALWAYS be dark.
I've suffered with depression and cutting before, so I know somewhat how you feel. Trust me, keeping it to yourself is the worst thing you can do.
If you like, I can give you the email address of my church. They are the warmest, most loving people you will ever meet. I'm sorry I can't do anything in person right now, but please know that my heart and my thoughts are close to you. PLEASE email me or PM me without hesitation.
I love ya Beck, yer my lil kindred spirit.
~Vicky
Upvote
0
Praise the Lord. Glad to hear you are feeling better. God is working. God blessElshevia
Regular Member
Dear Becky, you sound so depressed, look up my dear Heaven is above you, and God is there, is your Mother depressed as well, as you mentioned anti-depressants, you could be taking this from Her, but you have one who will help you, and I ask Father in the Name of Jesus to send your comforting Angels to Becky, to make her aware of how precious she is to you, and to make her aware of the future she has in Your Love, and care, You have for all Your precious Children. Amen.
Elshevia.
Elshevia.
Last edited:
Upvote
0
ForeverHopeful
Senior Veteran
Father, thank you for joining us in prayer and for already working in Becky's life. Give her forgiveness toward her mom and give her your love, comfort, guidance and strength in dealing with this and all of the struggles she will face in life. Thank you for this and for all you do, give her peace that pasess understanding just knowing this is in your hands, Amen!
Upvote
0
