Hi. I'm new to these forums... Seems like a wonderful world, though! I'm hoping perhaps someone here can give me some insight or perspective on circumstances I'm in and how to find peace about which direction to head. Sorry this is long... I am currently meeting with an ex (6 mo. relationship a three years ago) to see about the possibility of a future with us. Totally odd that I would have even been thinking it was possible until about a month ago when I had a spiritual growth spurt and during that time had oddest thoughts about him again in a "you could serve well together" way that I thought perhaps was God planting a seed. This guy has spent the last couple of years trying to get past his feelings for me, but says he has been unable to. I am at a point where I'd love to stay friends-looking-at-the-possibility-of-more-level and explore getting to know each other again, he is aching because he wants nothing more than a life together with me. I am totally anxious about the whole thing, have been praying for peace on which direction to head. The reason our relationship ended before was because I didn't find myself falling in love with him and he wanted marriage, so out of fairness I ended it. Now I am scared I'm going to hurt him again, but I also feel that if this is God planting a seed, I don't want to disregard it because of fear or emotion. Feel like if I just stop it now his pain would be less than if we keep talking and a month or two down the road we see a roadblock. But also don't know if I'm ready to say it definately won't work. Arggh! I keep going in circles in my head about the whole thing. My friends are "too close" and want me to be happy, I want to be in the center of God's will whether I'm happy or not. It seems like it'd be easier to just hurt him quick, throw away the possibility, and keep on keeping on. But I don't necessarily feel peace about that choice either... 
