Need some support,guidance

[raderack]

thanks for the support again brinny and everyone
i need to find an substitute to the bad nurse,and i need to have some peace,or rest of the vultures.
And that headache and the annoying pressure and now pain in the chest are now constant..and i cant go to a doctor do a checkup and let mom alone..not yet..not until she is without the tracheotomy

 

[brinny]

thanks for the support again brinny
i need to find an substitute to the bad nurse,and i need to have some peace,or rest of the vultures.

I hear you my friend...and praying about that.....and for God's protection for you and that He heals your body, mind, and spirit, and removes all that cause stress so that peace reigns in you, your mom, and your household. Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen (((hug)))

 

[raderack]

We all heard rumors or stories how stress can kill someone.

One day or night of stress cant,but accumulate stress and the story is other.

I really never believed in that,until now,the memory starts to blackout,is hard to move or doing things,the head appears that is pulsating in pain,the chest always with that pressure and now pain.

11:05pm im going to try to sleep,or at least spent some hours looking at ceiling from the bed

 

[brinny]

can you watch/listen to this? Praying my friend (((hug)))

"Be Still and Know" from Scripture Lullabies - YouTube

 

[raderack]

thanks my friend and everyone,i listen to the lullabilies an really nice work

i got an weird blackout today,that covered my entire evening from 1pm to 7pm..later the nurse said that the vulture sister visit at 9am..stayed 5mins then got left..but she said that after that i did the things with a vague look in the eyes,and that the rest of evening i just space out at chair in my room..sleeping with eyes open?

And i got a swallow cut in my arm,that i dont remember..yeah..the blackout times got worst at the beginning i got then,but i still did my work at home and with mom,when i got over stress(the problem with the nurse+visit of vulture sister)..i just stand still

 

[brinny]

thanks my friend and everyone,i listen to the lullabilies an really nice work

i got an weird blackout today,that covered my entire evening from 1pm to 7pm..later the nurse said that the vulture sister visit at 9am..stayed 5mins then got left..but she said that after that i did the things with a vague look in the eyes,and that the rest of evening i just space out at chair in my room..sleeping with eyes open?

And i got a swallow cut in my arm,that i dont remember..yeah..the blackout times got worst at the beginning i got then,but i still did my work at home and with mom,when i got over stress(the problem with the nurse+visit of vulture sister)..i just stand still

Thank you for the update, continuing to pray my friend (((hug)))

 

[ToBeBlessed]

hope things get better for you soon.

 

[Jeshu]

Keep up the good work, our Lord will reward those who care for others, let that be your comfort in life.

 

[brinny]

praying my friend (((hug)))

 

[raderack]

And tomorrow the vulture sister will came again..lovely..it appear that the complete backout it recharged some of my bateries...

I would like some prayers for tomorrow,it would be another bad episode for me,my fear is that everything some conflict happens,my blackouts turn longer,with me doing bad things to myself,whitout i even notice.

Weird isnt it,i dont fear if i do it conscious,but it scares me if i do it whitout control

 

[raderack]

For everyone in usa,i hope you guys are ok.
My pray for you guys,with the grace of god your are all in good health.

yeah,sorry for bad english,headache isnt helping too lately

 

[brinny]

And tomorrow the vulture sister will came again..lovely..it appear that the complete backout it recharged some of my bateries...

I would like some prayers for tomorrow,it would be another bad episode for me,my fear is that everything some conflict happens,my blackouts turn longer,with me doing bad things to myself,whitout i even notice.

Weird isnt it,i dont fear if i do it conscious,but it scares me if i do it whitout control

Praying for your protection from anyone or anyone that would harm you and that God strengthens and sustains you, grants you wisdom, discernment and clarity and is yours and your mom's Protector and Defender. Praying that God heals your body, mind, and spirit. Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

 

[brinny]

For everyone in usa,i hope you guys are ok.
My pray for you guys,with the grace of god your are all in good health.

yeah,sorry for bad english,headache isnt helping too lately

Bless yer heart, praying in agreement (((hug)))

 

[Jeshu]

Don't forget to cast all your worries on Him, it is such a release to be able to do that, for Jesus gives us ability to keep on going back in return.

Keep your focus on Him and not on those who are in it only for themselves.

 

[raderack]

Sorry for the lack of update..

Still with the feeling,of why im here,and is worth to keep going thoughts
The weird is,that my memory blackouts may be an way of defense,or to make me avoid more weight/stress and make my burden(inside myself) heavier

 

[brinny]

Sorry for the lack of update..

Still with the feeling,of why im here,and is worth to keep going thoughts
The weird is,that my memory blackouts may be an way of defense,or to make me avoid more weight/stress and make my burden(inside myself) heavier

It's possible my friend....continuing to pray for you (((hug)))

 

[Galilee63]

Hi R,

Have you 'handed' over your Heart, Soul, Mind, Body, burdens, trials, sleep deprivation and stresses to Jesus Christ our Saviour, through our Heavenly Mother Mary as yet through The Holy Rosary or a Decade prayed of The Holy Rosary or Jesus' Divine Mercy Chaplet?

Jesus answers everything I pray to Him (in His Holy Will) and eases all of my burdens when I pray His Divine Mercy Chaplet to Jesus Christ our Saviour, fully trusting in Him.

Placing Jesus' Holy Cross in front of you is most important while focussing on Jesus' Stations of His Cross ie Jesus' moments of His Great Agonies, Sorrows and Trials while dying.

For your Mother's Soul and your Soul, nothing is as important at present.

Love and kindest wishes my Brother in Jesus Christ our Saviour

 

[Galilee63]

You are a Loving, kind wonderful Soul Brinny having supported Maximinas and Miguel all the way through,

Love and kindest wishes my Brothers and Sisters in Jesus Christ our Saviour

 

[Galilee63]

Ensure that 'you' are consulting with your Doctor weekly Raderack with respite care brought in weekly to give you breaks - a good kind neighbour for a couple of hours or a Friend of your Mother's to sit and knit or talk with Her.

Love and kindest wishes my Brothers and Sisters in Jesus Christ our Saviour

 

[raderack]

and they came back from another city,the 5 again..
i cant handle this anymore