Need prayers.please

[Macchiato]

I feel like Im dealing with alot. Im trying my best to break through this situation.

I am thankful for my blessings. I have a job im a custodian and Its a very physical strenous job so im tired daily but i have strength to still manage my kids at times. Also thankful for my car but it recently got damaged.

So today after work and after getting my kids almost as soon as I walk in my parents start attacking me. My son peed on the bed sheets and I was trying to change them until my dad came in yelling at me saying Im weak and how could I let the daycare treat my son like this.

He had a wet saggy diaper. I had no idea he was wet when i got him from daycare. Because i carry my daughter and hold my sons hand when i pick them up. So i didnt know. Also i dont come home right away all the time. Sometimes 30 minutes if i go to the store or get gas. So my son could pee at anytime.

So bc of that he called me weak, stupid, spineless. Said im a weak mother i dont care about my kids my mom chimed in and agreed and they just kept going on. My dad saying he can talk to me anyway he wants bc im hia child I have his name. He doesnt help bc im not trying and i dont cook the kids meals from scratch. I dont take care of my kids. But he doesnt and never has cooked a home cooked meal for me and my brothers..but whatevet

You guys. Im so exhausted. I work a very physical job and im sweating daily and just the toll of having my kids is a lot. I felt this was a very low blow. Very.

I feel drained all the way around. Physically, emotionally, mentally. My son is in speech theraph3 and i had to make an appointment for an autism evaluation whilr at work..so while being physically exhausted. I worry about my son and also have to deal with critical parents.

I still remember when the Drs thought my son had cancer and how rude and nasty my parents were.

Im baffled. I take care of my kids completely they do nothing but have everything to say. They dont know whats going on in my head.

They dont know i have bouts of ppd. Stuff like this could send someone over the edge.

Im really trying not to break. Im all my kids have and I have to be strong for them. So if you can please pray for me. Im so busy i barely bath and i dont remember the last time I washed my hair.

I. Am. Trying.

 

[tturt]

Sorry that this is happening to you. Praying as you requested. Asking God to strengthen you and help you and your children.

 

[mama2one]

sorry you have such horrible parents

can relate as my parents were emotionally abusive to me
I was the scapegoat
it took me years & years to forgive them

know it takes a toll on you

hope you can save money so you can get out on your own sooner rather than later

 

[Macchiato]

sorry you have such horrible parents

can relate as my parents were emotionally abusive to me
I was the scapegoat
it took me years & years to forgive them

know it takes a toll on you

hope you can save money so you can get out on your own sooner rather than later

Yeah i feel like im their punching bag or something. Not anymore.

 

[Unqualified]

I’m praying for you. But I think you should give your dad a deaf ear. Doesn’t sound like he’s got anything positive to add. I think God is allowing this though. Your going to be the strongest mofo on the block. Don’t get kicked out but you don’t have to be perfect. Your entitled to what you feel about them. Keep voicing it to us. Be strong find your space and your room and make a life for you and your kids. Find happiness with them. You are a new creation. Love begets love. Hope. Faith. Love. Maybe only work there for a year. Get a good recommendation and keep looking.

God will help you and give you joy. And joy is you strength. Tears are for night time but joy comes in the morning.’

 

[Macchiato]

I’m praying for you. But I think you should give your dad a deaf ear. Doesn’t sound like he’s got anything positive to add. I think God is allowing this though. Your going to be the strongest mofo on the block. Don’t get kicked out but you don’t have to be perfect. Your entitled to what you feel about them. Keep voicing it to us. Be strong find your space and your room and make a life for you and your kids. Find happiness with them. You are a new creation. Love begets love. Hope. Faith. Love. Maybe only work there for a year. Get a good recommendation and keep looking.

God will help you and give you joy. And joy is you strength. Tears are for night time but joy comes in the morning.’

Yeah Im not. Its just irritating. My mom now wants to watch my kids said she would watch them the whole day after she disrespected me. She said why would I send them to school? Hmm bc I cant depend on y'all.

Then she kept complaining about daycare to let staff change them only and my brother chimed in that a teenager was changing one of my kids in yhe class when they went to pick them up one day.

My first thought to my bro was well why didnt you tell me anything. I wouldve obviously said something. Youre telling me now. Couldve een months ago. Smh

Its something new everyday.

 

[Macchiato]

Well it got worse my dad said he wanted to hit me ..said my boyfriend hits me.. Called me weak and stupid. Said i dont feed my kids. I told him if he cares so much he shoulfe feed them he said no bc im the mother.

It blew up and my mom wanted to call thr police on the both of us.
Please pray i can get out of here. Theyre horrendously toxic.

Horrible.

I said nothing to them ..they start first then bait and switch.

I just want to get to a hotel.

 

[bmjackson]

You're living with them?

I wonder if a woman's refuge would accept you as you are being abused. Don't know how it works in your country but in mine they help get you accomodation.

 

[Macchiato]

I talked to the daycare abt my daughter's bruises and one lady said kids are falling all the time. Her teacher wasnt there so i could only talk to her.

I feel so... Idk just like mush.

Idk what to do.

When my brother was watching my kids my mom told him to leave my daughter in a poop filled diaper. My grandma ran out on my kids.

Daycare is a big help but still the bruises i cant brush off.

Idk.

 

[Unqualified]

I wonder if giving your dad some money would help?

 

[Macchiato]

I wonder if giving your dad some money would help?

No. Ive done that. My dad is nice one day mean the next no matter what you do.l 4 him

 

[Macchiato]

I think ill stay with mt bf/ex bc my mom keeps threatening to call the cops on my dad and I and my dad keeps baiting me by calling me out of my name.

I have to go.