Need Help

[BrookeGF]

I have been seeking God in prayer and it seems like there is no end to my suffering. I have been up all night in a constant state of despair and anxiety. I am also going through withdrawals from my medication because I am out. I don't abuse medicine, but I did, in a moment of impulsiveness, take all that I had left. This happened on Sunday night. My motive was that hopefully God would allow me to die. I know that it was wrong for me to do this but I just want to be out of this torture. I have a feeling of anxiety that makes me feel sick all of the time. And a deep sadness that I cannot shake. I also spend the majority of my time alone and even when I am with other people I can barely force myself to speak. Sometimes I find myself talking to people in my head. Not because I'm hallucinating, but I think because it's my mind's only way to cope with being alone. I think that too much solitude can cause insanity but the mind must find some way to cope. I know I'm just going on and on. I feel desperate because I know only God can save me from this. I just don't know what to do. People require that you go about your daily routine no matter how messed up your brain is. I feel like I can barely function and I don't know how I'm going to make it to school without doing something stupid. I've pleaded with God for hours. Maybe he is testing me, maybe it's something else. But there's always that nagging thought that says, "God hates you, and has abandoned you." But I know in faith that God will not abandon me and I have not walked away from Him. I ask for prayer because this is the only place I can ever ask.

 

[OnlyBelieve]

Dear Lord, Please bless this Dear child of yours. Fear we speak to you in the Name of Jesus, and we tell you to LEAVE, this is a child of the king and you have No right here, Father we ask for your holy spirit to minister to her heart, Father we ask for your Peace to fall on her. Please wrap her in your arms. In Jesus Mighty Name amen.

 

[Humble Pie]

I have prayed for you & God is there for you, always. Try to get some sleep cos being awake too long only makes us feel tons worse.

 

[lindart]

My dear BrookeGF, you are physically sick with your anxiety and depression. I understand how you are feeling because I suffer with this as well. I did go to a psychiatrist and was put on SSRI's. I feel so much better! It took a while, but after reaching a correct dose I feel normal again.

We are blessed to know you, that you took the time to post with us. I, too, would isolate myself and found it very difficult to talk when going through anxiety.

Please make an appointment with a psychiatrist asap. Then, this is when you wait with God as your doctor finds the right med and dosage for you. Do not let your 'religion' get in the way of proper medical help. If you broke your arm, would you lay there and wait on God to heal this? God knows that I mean no disrespect. God wants you to go to his doctors that he educated for you.

 

[Linus]

Praying for healing and comfort as well as deliverance from depression and anxiety in the name of Jesus Christ. Thank You Lord!

 

[SplendidTree]

I think it would be wise to tell your doctor this as soon as possible. I know it is easy to worry what they may say or think, but it is vital to be up front with them so you can get the best possible care. God loves you always and will NEVER leave or forsake you!

Praying, precious sister.

 

[servant of Merciful Love]

Praying for your strength, hope, peace, and healing

Eternal God,
in whom mercy is endless
and the treasury of compassion inexhaustible,
Look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us,
That in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent,
But with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will,
Which is Love and Mercy itself. Amen
Divine mercy Prayer
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[ForeverHopeful]

Praying in agreement with each of these loving prayers for our sister in Christ. Father, draw her closer to you and heal her according to your perfect will. Thank you for leading her here for it means you are already working on her circumstances. Amen

Dear sis, hang in there. Praying is the best place to start. Please don't take too many meds at once. So many people have died from this. You are here for a reason, perhaps to help others in need when you are well enough. May God bless you and give you peace, Amen

 

[singlewv2011]

I agree, please seek help as soon as possible. Try to remember you are never alone, Father is always with us.

Psalm 139
1 O LORD, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, LORD.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
8 If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave, you are there.
9 If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
11 I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
17 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!

 

[soyunagile7980]

Praying for deliverance in the name of Jesus. AMEN