Need help

[GreyWolf]

Here I am again. I struggled for a while, and the bad thoughts went away, but now they're back. I keep getting flashbacks of my big suicide attempt, even though it was years ago. Do I have PTSD? Can you give yourself Post Traumatic Stress Disorder by trying to kill yourself?

STAFF EDIT

....I want to die but I don't at the same time... I hate this disease. Will it ever get better? My friend says I will go to hell......I can't stand it.

 

[GreyWolf]

I tried to fight.....I give up......If this is Goodbye....thank you for being kind to me.

 

[nessa]

greywolf, calm down

 

[GreyWolf]

I'm sorry, I'm an idiot, I shoudn't have posted......This is a struggle I have to fight alone....I won't post again. I'm so stupid....

 

[IKTCA]

....I want to die but I don't at the same time...

There are 2 minds in you, one trying to overcome the other. In that state of mind(s), no reasoning or persuasion is effective. But with the mind that does not want to - this mind came from God -, open the Bible and read the words of Jesus aloud. The power in the words of Jesus will overcome the other mind for you.

....This is a struggle I have to fight alone....

Open your eyes and see the hand of the Lord on you. Without the hand of the Lord, you would have died the first time you attempted suicide, and wouldn't be posting this here now. This hand of Jesus is thousand times is better than all your friends and family.

Rupert

 

[GreyWolf]

Listen, I'm sorry to anyone I may have upset....I know this isn't a forum with mental health professionals..Forgive me, I just had a really bad night. I'll call a suicide hotline next time, ok

Just please pray for me. THanks.

 

[s_gunter]

There are 2 minds in you, one trying to overcome the other. In that state of mind(s), no reasoning or persuasion is effective. But with the mind that does not want to - this mind came from God -, open the Bible and read the words of Jesus aloud. The power in the words of Jesus will overcome the other mind for you.
Open your eyes and see the hand of the Lord on you. Without the hand of the Lord, you would have died the first time you attempted suicide, and wouldn't be posting this here now. This hand of Jesus is thousand times is better than all your friends and family.

Rupert

Great advice. And I never thought of it that way, having two minds. Thank you also (it's nice to see some understanding from others....)for recognizing that now reasoning or persuasion is effective. We're just called idiots and other insults when we can't see the light through the muck.

What I have bolded in your post is exactly me. "Here only by the grace of God." If I had my way a few years ago, I wouldn't be here posting this, due to my own hand.

 

[s_gunter]

Listen, I'm sorry to anyone I may have upset....I know this isn't a forum with mental health professionals..Forgive me, I just had a really bad night. I'll call a suicide hotline next time, ok

Just please pray for me. THanks.

GreyWolf, if you need to talk to a friend, my inbox is still open, and I'll check it a heck of a lot more often than I have been. Also, my MSN messenger address is open to you, in my profile. Please, if you need a friend, talk to me. If you need the professionals, get a hold of the professionals. Don't trust yourself in this time.

 

[stanneberg]

Just please pray for me. THanks.

I'm glad that you wrote when you did. I have been praying for you. I wish that all of us would do the same when we are in trouble.

Stephen Tanneberg

 

[Shalia]

Sarah, I e-mailed you my phone number, please feel free to use it.

I know how hard it is to even think about missing a holiday. I missed our anniversary last year and it totally stank. I'm still bummed. But I'd rather have been alive on Jan. 8th than dead on Jan. 1st because I didn't get the help I needed.

It's only early Sunday. Maybe by the time Thursday rolls around you'd be good enough for a day pass to go out and eat with your family if you came back afterwards. the hospital I've always gone to will do that for you if they think you are feeling enough better. Worth calling and asking. <Recommend doing from a payphone. Cellphones are too easy to track nowadays.>

We love you Sarah. You are vitally important. At the very least, try to hold on till Friday when you can get to the hospital safely.

 

[lostndown]

i am almost positive i have BPD. i have had flashbacks of that too, of me and of me s/ing. it scared me a lot. i know i have depression, but i am down a lot more than i am happy and i'm not really happy unless i have my best friend with me. i cry sometimes and need a friend to talk to. i am down right now, but am doing alright. i am fine - s/i. i quit in july '04'.

email me if u can relate or can be my friend. if ur female 16 - 20 yrs old. i may take a while to reply. i'll be on sometime.

~michelle~

teenmaniagirl_05@hotmail.com


thanks.