need help with OCD

[Lily76_]

i need help grounding myself with Christianity instead of going anywhere else i have OCD sometimes i get ideas about things but then i get obsessed about it and t goes around over and over am getting help from my minster at church i see him on Sunday and i have an appointment with him on Monday am taken my medication as always Am seeing things at the moment and what i believe to be seeing is Jesus and other things as well am on medication for that too am struggling my husband is with me and he is supportive and understanding
am getting thoughts that blasphemous and am feeling scared but i know that Jesus is with not just because i see him i know that Jesus is with me i can feel it its is so strong yet i dont know why am feeling the way i feel about going somewhere else religiously
can i every stop doing this going in curlces from one faith to another i want this to stop its not help me and my husband marrage as well we fight about it all the time as my husband is trying to stop me going somewhere else I DONT WANT TO LEAVE JESUS I DONT WANT TO BELIEVE IN ANYTHING ELSE APART FROM JESUS
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME how do i stop myself doing this i see my psych in august and my dr once a month i just have to get on with it the best i can i guess
its hard to deal with

 

[Bluerose31]

i need help grounding myself with Christianity instead of going anywhere else i have OCD sometimes i get ideas about things but then i get obsessed about it and t goes around over and over am getting help from my minster at church i see him on Sunday and i have an appointment with him on Monday am taken my medication as always Am seeing things at the moment and what i believe to be seeing is Jesus and other things as well am on medication for that too am struggling my husband is with me and he is supportive and understanding
am getting thoughts that blasphemous and am feeling scared but i know that Jesus is with not just because i see him i know that Jesus is with me i can feel it its is so strong yet i dont know why am feeling the way i feel about going somewhere else religiously
can i every stop doing this going in curlces from one faith to another i want this to stop its not help me and my husband marrage as well we fight about it all the time as my husband is trying to stop me going somewhere else I DONT WANT TO LEAVE JESUS I DONT WANT TO BELIEVE IN ANYTHING ELSE APART FROM JESUS
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME how do i stop myself doing this i see my psych in august and my dr once a month i just have to get on with it the best i can i guess
its hard to deal with

Praying for you.

 

[Solomons Porch]

I ALWAYS pray for you

 

[mytel]

I am praying for you as well, may God provide the strength you need during this time.

 

[Lily76_]

I feel like am going to hell because am not pure i have many sins my confusion about what my gender is its hard to explane but i think am not pure not good enough to enter heaven i have to do something about this but how do i purge this from myself i mean i can wash myself need holy water but i dont know that ill get enough of it for washing myself with so what else can i do am going to wash myself and hope it makes the sins go away meant to be going to a group today but i dont feel up to it at all the group is sinful and shouldnt go there my husband is sleeping at the moment i want to tell him am not going but he will try and get me to go as he says am shutting myself in i need to be pure Jesus is with me but i need to be pure just told my husband am not going didnt give him the reason why he is half a sleep at the moment am kinda sitting here in the dark i cant have a shower at the moment as i need help from my husband to have one i can wait but is that ok or do i need to be pure sooner ? my husbands alrm is set for 11.30 at the moment its 9.02 am unsure what to do really i am listening to christian music maybe i should read the bible a little and pray for thoese who are needing prayers and hope but am unsure if i should be pure before i pray or touch the bible i dont want to sin i dont want to go to hell am scarred ill do the wrong thing can someone help me ???

 

[Lily76_]

oh and thank you for your prayers