I guess I was asking more if God brings someone into your life and you sort of know them, and then takes them out of your life for awhile then brings them back in. I knew this guy was an awesome guy when we first got to know each other a little two years ago. Not online, he worked with me and attended the same school. Before I met him everyone was telling me how great of a guy he was and what a strong Christian he was. They had also been talking about how he'd recently broken up with someone. He was away at some training for ROTC and missed RA training. That's why I was delayed in meeting him because I was a new RA. Anyway, when I finally met him I noticed that he was cute and I talked with him sometimes and my best friend was friends with him so we would all go eat or go see a movie or something sometimes. When we spent time together it was usually in a group, but I did know enough about him to know that if he had asked me out on a date I would have gone and I would get butterflies in my stomach being around him. However, I really never developed a very good friendship with him. Just a bit more than aquaintances I guess. I don't know why or for what reason we didn't get to know each other more then. As I remember, it didn't even occur to me that we might have a lot in common or might get along well. He left to go work at his parent's ministry that december after graduating, went to Africa with his Dad for a month, then went for army training afterwards. I didn't bother to get his email or address because I figured someone from the dorm would have it if I wanted to ever write him. I remember that before he left he'd been talking to this one girl and broke things off with her. I have thought about him off and on for the past two years, wondering what he's been doing, how he's been doing, etc.
Fast forward to the beginning of July. My best friend told me that G. needed our prayers because he was over in Iraq and was having a tough time being over there. She forwarded an email from him to me about how he was doing. I was really glad to hear how he was doing and hear he was okay. She suggested I send him an email but I told her he probably wouldn't remember me that well. She told me he is the kind of guy who remembers everything. So, I decided to write to him and just let him know I was praying for him and hoped he was doing good. Since then I have had the opportunity to email him back and forth and to talk to him via IM. We've found out that we have quite a bit in common and he is attending (online) the seminary that I would like to attend. Our beliefs are very similar, we have similar views on dating and relationships, and we are even both dog people lol. We are also both headed in similar directions it seems since we are both called to missions...although I feel more called toward inner city missions and he feels called toward foreign missions. However, I know things can change depending on God's will and neither of us is sure what God wants for our lives just yet.
He has been writing this other girl he knew from the dorm, but recently he told me that he is not sure she's what he is looking for because although she is a Christian, it is not a major part of her life and the idea of being a missionary does not appeal to her. He also said that it's nothing exclusive. I almost wanted to say "hello"! Here I am! lol. We have talked several times about dating and relationships in general, but have not talked about anything with each other. He asks me almost every time we talk if I have gone on any dates or if I've found a new guy, sometimes just sort of teasingly I think. I know I need to be patient about this and wait on the Lord but it's so hard. I have waited two years to be able to get to know this guy and find out if there is something there or if it was all my imagination.
I guess I don't get why God would bring G. back into my life...maybe it's selfish of me to think that God would bring G. back into my life for me to start a relationship with. I know that it would be awhile before that would happen since we both don't want to rush into anything and still need to get to know each other. I guess I'm just hopeful something will happen in the future though and that some other girl won't snag him away! I have been praying that God will bring G. closer to Him while he is in Iraq and will prepare him for what God wants him to do with his life. It's just hard because I want my feelings for him to go away again so that I can be a friend to him and not have a crush on him
Another thing is (sigh) that when he gets online he usually doesn't initiate the conversation but is happy to talk if I talk to him first. Maybe he doesn't want to give me the wrong impression? Maybe he does like me but doesnt want to give the impression that he wants to pursue something just yet because he knows he isn't ready?
Oh, just one more thing, he is stationed in Europe and will likely go back there when he gets back from Iraq, which would mean if we did want to see one another at some point it would be hard to do that. Even if he comes back to the states, he will likely be in Georgia since his parents live there, and I'm in Texas.
