My thoughts

[Question ?]

This dementia is driving me to think about putting myself in a mental hospital are senior center for the rest of my life. Some days I am great and happy and others I want to commit suicide (except I know that is a sin). I am miserable living with my oldest son and want to move back to North Carolina where I have friends.
I loved the mountains and the small cities there. But I am scared I would hurt my son's feelings if I told him I am miserable down here. He is trying to take care of me because he loves me and I understand that. I am horribly unhappy and depressed. I have dementia and hard of hearing and that bothers me as well.
Please pray for me for some relief of these emotions, God knows my thoughts but I do not know what to do. I do not wish to be a burden to my son are anybody else but with these problems they aggravate me greatly. Thank you.
name one Paul

 

[rob_aston]

some relief of these emotions

paul, your prayers have been heard.
(the blue word below is a link to my blog, where by the rules of this forum, i place prophetic words)

 

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This dementia is driving me to think about putting myself in a mental hospital are senior center for the rest of my life. Some days I am great and happy and others I want to commit suicide (except I know that is a sin). I am miserable living with my oldest son and want to move back to North Carolina where I have friends.
I loved the mountains and the small cities there. But I am scared I would hurt my son's feelings if I told him I am miserable down here. He is trying to take care of me because he loves me and I understand that. I am horribly unhappy and depressed. I have dementia and hard of hearing and that bothers me as well.
Please pray for me for some relief of these emotions, God knows my thoughts but I do not know what to do. I do not wish to be a burden to my son are anybody else but with these problems they aggravate me greatly. Thank you.
name one Paul

It sounds like you are from N.C., so instead of telling him you are miserable (which also is the case) tell him you are homesick.(which would be equally true). That way he may not take it offensively.

 

[nChrist]

nameone,

You will be in my prayers. May God walk with you every step of the way.

 

[Greg J.]

Every Christian must learn to accept help. Even if your son doesn't like having to take care of you, his decision to do so should be honored. Just be thankful, but still be yourself. You'll kill yourself trying to meet expectations that are in your head but never came out of his mouth. A very real problem is that you have not spoken frankly about your feelings to your son. Perhaps if you each are willing to compromise, your situation can be made better. You won't know unless you talk to him. If that is hard, then I suggest getting it behind you as quickly as possible and don't leave anything out when you talk. If it is too hard, you can always type it out and give it to him. I can't recommend using something written as notes unless you give him a copy first, because it is too easy to "just" skip the lesser points. But if they're on the list, that means the "you, when not under pressure" believed they needed to be communicated.

Read God's promises for his help for you and ask him for what you need and keep asking prayerfully.

 

[Question ?]

As for me I do not want to be a burden to my son. I have dementia which leads to alzheimer's, he loves me as I love him, but at some point I will round up in a nursing home eventually. name one

 

[1watchman]

Hello Nameone. I noted this statement out of your post: "I want to move back to North Carolina where I have friends.
I loved the mountains and the small cities there. But I am scared I would hurt my son's feelings if I told him I am miserable down here. He is trying to take care of me because he loves me and I understand that. I am horribly unhappy and depressed." Three things come to mind, as Greg also mentioned:

1. You might well write a note (reading it prayerfully before giving it) which explains what you also said here. State that you much love and appreciate him and all that he is trying to do, but you really want the peace in your final years of being in a surrounding you have enjoyed; and tell him you would like to discuss it further when he has time to see how this can be handled;
2. Of course this must be based on having a good support system back home in NC, or you will be in crisis in time. Perhaps your son can come and visit some time;
3. Be in much prayer to God to guide you if you are one who knows the Lord Jesus and trust Him always. He can give peace and resolve things for you.
I will pray for you, friend.

 

[Question ?]

Understood, thank and bless you. name one