Jamie’s Testimony:
In the year 1998 a young lad of 19 I was lost, corrupt, foolish and hopeless, I only knew despair and loneliness. I always believed that God existed but I wasn’t quite 100 % sure. Historically it had to be true if I looked to the historical records, the historical very rapid widespread of Christianity could not have been faked it just wouldn’t make sense, not to mention the varied and passionate separate revelations of the exact same events of the apostles would be too elaborate a rouse.
While I was at one of my weakest points in my life for many months late at night I was terrorized by physical real life demons who paralyzed me with fear, nothing I did physically would deter them, one night I heard one of them speak my name, it was terrible and I felt a terrible, ominous sense of helplessness and fear for some reason I know I had been going to church and listening to sermons (the seed had been planted?) and somehow I just called out Jesus Christ to please help me, true to his word I felt a presence unlike anything I had every encountered, a sense of joy, jubilation, peace and absolute peacefulness, something I cannot explain, the demons must have been sent straight to the abyss because they never tormented me in that way again If I recollect correctly.
The next day was wonderful I never felt better in my life If I recollect correctly, I maintained I was Christian and knew God existed but I did not follow his commands, he called out to me many, many times in the following years and I Ignored and rejected him. Whether it was foolish pride or just plain stupidity I followed my own path I wasn’t ready to give up my selfish sinful ways I would rather justify them, little did I know how much pain, suffering, shame and sadness this would cause me. I built my own prison, my own personal hell, it was nothing but ruin, hatred, perversion and jealously.
Alone again and on the edge of self-destruction January 2006 I felt a need to go to church (The Lord spoke to my heart?) I felt fear and the intense fear of rejection I was quite a coward, but I prayed to God for strength If I recollect correctly and I made my stand, I went to His People Church in Cape Town It was beautiful, the music sang to my heart and I felt and intense sense of joy and peace like nothing I experienced in years If I recollect correctly, I cried and again I cannot describe the feeling of joy as lasting inconsumable sense of joy and peace, I gave my life to Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
There were quite a few obstacles and stumbling stones It was beautiful for a while and in my own foolishness, impatience and pride I rejected the Lord again it was too hard and difficult to follow his word, but he did not reject me his unwavering patience and compassion, he cleared the muck from my eyes, corrected the error of my ways, renewed my soul, body and mind and sent me on my way again. Though I had fallen again and rejected him he bared no grudge, how can it be such a great omnipresent God has graced my life, I can never repay my debt I dedicate myself to the Lord to further his Kingdom so others may know his everlasting love and compassion.
So everything went up and down for a while but when troubles came I ran away from God instead of towards him, I tried to rely too much on my own strength, when God could only be my strength and not give me the strength.
I went through a very dark period and I felt very ashamed and confused, and I decided to run away from God and live life my own way and it went okay for a time but then troubles came and I was crushed, for a long time I was in despair and sadness.
Then one day when I was feeling right on the edge I prayed to God and listened to his music and comforted me and healed my heart, soul and mind and it went well for a while but then the troubles came but this time I knew I never wanted to go back to that way and God must have made me see I needed his strength to persevere and I ran to him and the troubles were tough but he defeated them.
I’ve been through a few other troubles and he was there to comfort and guide me. And lately I never felt this good and I can feel him comforting and guiding me.
No matter what happens or how many troubles I face I hope I can put all my hope, trust and faith in Father God.
My best friend, the greatest teacher I will ever know, My Father who art in Heaven, the love of my life, my only friend in the prison, in a place where everything dies it’s the Lord I follow.
Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior fill me up with the Holy Spirit and let me do your will and not my own.
He alone is righteous, He alone is just, He alone is most high
Holy, Holy, Holy God heaven and earth are full of your glory, hosanna in the highest.
I will not question the Lord my god I put all my trust, faith, hope in the Lord my God and Saviour
Praise be his holy name, halleluiah.
Amen
Sorry if it's a bit long.... I would accept any criticism it probably needs a bit of work, thanks for reading.
In the year 1998 a young lad of 19 I was lost, corrupt, foolish and hopeless, I only knew despair and loneliness. I always believed that God existed but I wasn’t quite 100 % sure. Historically it had to be true if I looked to the historical records, the historical very rapid widespread of Christianity could not have been faked it just wouldn’t make sense, not to mention the varied and passionate separate revelations of the exact same events of the apostles would be too elaborate a rouse.
While I was at one of my weakest points in my life for many months late at night I was terrorized by physical real life demons who paralyzed me with fear, nothing I did physically would deter them, one night I heard one of them speak my name, it was terrible and I felt a terrible, ominous sense of helplessness and fear for some reason I know I had been going to church and listening to sermons (the seed had been planted?) and somehow I just called out Jesus Christ to please help me, true to his word I felt a presence unlike anything I had every encountered, a sense of joy, jubilation, peace and absolute peacefulness, something I cannot explain, the demons must have been sent straight to the abyss because they never tormented me in that way again If I recollect correctly.
The next day was wonderful I never felt better in my life If I recollect correctly, I maintained I was Christian and knew God existed but I did not follow his commands, he called out to me many, many times in the following years and I Ignored and rejected him. Whether it was foolish pride or just plain stupidity I followed my own path I wasn’t ready to give up my selfish sinful ways I would rather justify them, little did I know how much pain, suffering, shame and sadness this would cause me. I built my own prison, my own personal hell, it was nothing but ruin, hatred, perversion and jealously.
Alone again and on the edge of self-destruction January 2006 I felt a need to go to church (The Lord spoke to my heart?) I felt fear and the intense fear of rejection I was quite a coward, but I prayed to God for strength If I recollect correctly and I made my stand, I went to His People Church in Cape Town It was beautiful, the music sang to my heart and I felt and intense sense of joy and peace like nothing I experienced in years If I recollect correctly, I cried and again I cannot describe the feeling of joy as lasting inconsumable sense of joy and peace, I gave my life to Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
There were quite a few obstacles and stumbling stones It was beautiful for a while and in my own foolishness, impatience and pride I rejected the Lord again it was too hard and difficult to follow his word, but he did not reject me his unwavering patience and compassion, he cleared the muck from my eyes, corrected the error of my ways, renewed my soul, body and mind and sent me on my way again. Though I had fallen again and rejected him he bared no grudge, how can it be such a great omnipresent God has graced my life, I can never repay my debt I dedicate myself to the Lord to further his Kingdom so others may know his everlasting love and compassion.
So everything went up and down for a while but when troubles came I ran away from God instead of towards him, I tried to rely too much on my own strength, when God could only be my strength and not give me the strength.
I went through a very dark period and I felt very ashamed and confused, and I decided to run away from God and live life my own way and it went okay for a time but then troubles came and I was crushed, for a long time I was in despair and sadness.
Then one day when I was feeling right on the edge I prayed to God and listened to his music and comforted me and healed my heart, soul and mind and it went well for a while but then the troubles came but this time I knew I never wanted to go back to that way and God must have made me see I needed his strength to persevere and I ran to him and the troubles were tough but he defeated them.
I’ve been through a few other troubles and he was there to comfort and guide me. And lately I never felt this good and I can feel him comforting and guiding me.
No matter what happens or how many troubles I face I hope I can put all my hope, trust and faith in Father God.
My best friend, the greatest teacher I will ever know, My Father who art in Heaven, the love of my life, my only friend in the prison, in a place where everything dies it’s the Lord I follow.
Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior fill me up with the Holy Spirit and let me do your will and not my own.
He alone is righteous, He alone is just, He alone is most high
Holy, Holy, Holy God heaven and earth are full of your glory, hosanna in the highest.
I will not question the Lord my god I put all my trust, faith, hope in the Lord my God and Saviour
Praise be his holy name, halleluiah.
Amen
Sorry if it's a bit long.... I would accept any criticism it probably needs a bit of work, thanks for reading.
. i'm so glad you have found Jesus and he has saved you from your worldly ways! all glory, honour and praise are His forever and ever! amen!
