Well...all was fine up until 2 years ago (concerning my walk with the LORD). But then I went thru two nervous break downs and started to blame G-D for all the woes in my life and continued to destruct my life rather quickly. Drugs, alcohol, suicide/depression, etc. Spent 2 months in hospital (both mental and regular). On and off meds. My whole world and life was a blur. I pushed my wife away and she left me. Dabled into Vampyrism and Paganism. Tattoos. Cutting. Etc. Modern Gothy stuff. And all this I did because I saw G-D punishing me. Finaly, an act of divine mercy. An Earthquake that literaly shook me out of my sleep. An event totaly and uterly out of my control. I started to think. Some of my friends that have been praying for me and kept trying to get me into a church, period, got me to go to their church. The sermon that day was an introduction into Peter's life. And how he did so many stupid and hurtful things in his life before his ministry but Jesus still forgave him because he had big plans for him. I just broke down and cried. I realized that it wasnt G-D but my own hand that did all these things. And that Jesus was the only way to make it through. So I dedicated my all to Him. And havent looked back. I now live to serve. And yes, His mercy does endure for ever! 
