My "Story

[sarag]

I am 16 years old and I suffer from depression. Most of the time, I put on a fake smile to hide my sadness from people because they tend to judge. Years of judgment and torture from my family left me depressed, and on the edge of anorexia. I got down to the stage where I was cutting myself more than I was eating. Starting out with self injury, I guess I really didn't think it through. I started on my arms, and it moved to my legs when I realized that I couldn't hide cuts and scars on my arms too easily. To this day, my family still hasn't noticed the cuts or scars (even though I don't go to great lengths to try and hide them).


That is my story in short form. I felt that I needed to put it out there. I needed to get all this off my chest, and there is nobody I can talk to about it.

 

[StarsInUrEye]

You always have someone to talk to... all you have to do is pray =) plus everyone here is super friendly whenever you need to get things off your chest. Try and hang in there. Things will get better.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I agree with Stars... there is always someone to talk to. On here... while we may not respond right away, it's definitely a supportive forum.

Thank you for sharing your story.

 

[sarag]

thanks y'all. i just feel so helpless and hopeless. just about an hour ago, my family told me that they hate me. if they only knew about what i go through on a daily basis...

 

[Seek.1st]

Wow, Sarag. Who in your family is saying these things? Is it siblings?

Do you go to church? I'm wondering if you'd feel comfortable talking to someone at church, like the pastor. Maybe they could counsel you and your family members so that you can sort out your conflicts.

Remember that Jesus loves you and so do I. You are very precious in the sight of God, Sarag.

 

[sarag]

Wow, Sarag. Who in your family is saying these things? Is it siblings?

Do you go to church? I'm wondering if you'd feel comfortable talking to someone at church, like the pastor. Maybe they could counsel you and your family members so that you can sort out your conflicts.

Remember that Jesus loves you and so do I. You are very precious in the sight of God, Sarag.

its actually my siblings and my father. i never see my mother, so she doesn't bother me. i don't feel comfortable talking to anyone from my church about my family issues, mostly because i cant get my dad to go to church.

summary of my parents can be found in the caregiver/family support sub-forum under the title of "My Parents..."

 

[Tempura]

I really think you should get professional help by any means necessary.

 

[sarag]

I really think you should get professional help by any means necessary.

I wish I could, but then again, I'm kind of glad I can't. If I do, my family will still hate me and on top of that, they will think I am completely nuts. I like to think that if I can get through this, I will be a stronger person. I don't need professional help, only the prayers and encouragement of my fellow Christians. May God bless you all!

 

[Over]

welcome to CF

 

[sarag]

Thanks for all the help everyone. I continue to improve, but only through the help of my newfound friends. I try to help others as much as I can...and I have managed to save a few lives.

Brighten someone's day...and they might have a new lease on life.

 

[sarag]

There are times in a person's life where they feel they are lost, alone, unwanted, or unloved.

Thanks to CF, I have a decreased amount of these times. There is not a doubt in my mind that CF saved my life.

Thanks once again.



Oh, and something to make you laugh:

 

[ladybug6]

God always loves and wants you he loves you more then anything or anyone I'm here if you need to talk