My Story *T* *CSA* *R*

[LovedSparrow]

Lilymay, God bless you for your courage to share your story. I have PTSD but for different reasons, my heart goes out to you. We believe you, and know that none of this abuse was your fault.

StayingStrong4Him, thank you for the tips. I have been through abuse but in different forms, so I don't always understand or know what to do.

 

[Lilymay]

Thank you LovedSparrow for your words.

I am sorry for the abuse you have suffered... prayers.

For me, understanding and knowing what to do is difficult... sometimes I feel I have taken two steps forward and other times I feel I have taken two steps back. I really try not to heap guilt or pressure on myself when I have backstepped or am at a standstill... When I am in that.. I tell myself it is a work in progress.

 

[LovedSparrow]

You're right, Lilymay. It is progress even though it doesn't feel like it. I found a quote in the paper yesterday that said, "Even if you fall flat on your face, you're still moving forward."- Victor Kiam. I can relate to you feeling of two steps forward, two steps back, and then 10 steps forward, 10 steps back...

The serenity prayer comes to mind. I was in Celebrate Recovery (a 12-step group for people struggling in life, not just alcoholism- depression, anxiety, abuse, substance abuse, etc.) Not many people know the full serenity prayer but the "taking one day at a time, one moment at a time..." came to mind. (even one minute at a time!) Here it is:

God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace.
Taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it
Trusting that You will make all things right
If I surrender to your will
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
And surpremely happy with You
Forever in the next.
Amen
-Reinhold Niebuhr

May God bless your steps in recovery, my friend.
LovedSparrow


This helped me now, too:

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