My second chance.

[Looking2Change]

Hi guys i am jackie.

I have drank since i was 11 - 12 never really to crazy until i turned 17. I have had alot of messed up family problems so i have used to get away from it. It is at the point where it is like 5 days a week i wind up drinking alot at night or in the morning. Over the summer i had alot of really bad nights drinking way to much.

During the summer is when my friends and family realized i probly had a problem. I am always the first to deny having a drinking problem. I have tried to quit but i always end up getting loaded that night or the next day.

I think things came to a head over the weekend. I strip on fridays and saturdays and i got pretty drunk not like crazy drunk i had 6 or so shots of crown. Anyway i was coming home and i got pulled over. I parked for a second in a open parking lot to make a call so it seemed sketchy to the officer. I figured for sure i would get DUI and i was already thinking about how would i get to work so on and so on. The cop just wanted to see why i was in the parking lot so he didn't test me or anything i got lucky. I figure he deffently could smell that i had been drinking and somehow i don't know how i got let off.

I feel this is kind of like a second chance. On my way home i heard this great song i really related to my life and i realized this is my time to change. Saturday was the last time i have had a drink. I know this is my oppurtunity it won't be easy but i have to try.

 

[meblonde]

Hi guys i am jackie.

I have drank since i was 11 - 12 never really to crazy until i turned 17. I have had alot of messed up family problems so i have used to get away from it. It is at the point where it is like 5 days a week i wind up drinking alot at night or in the morning. Over the summer i had alot of really bad nights drinking way to much.

During the summer is when my friends and family realized i probly had a problem. I am always the first to deny having a drinking problem. I have tried to quit but i always end up getting loaded that night or the next day.

I think things came to a head over the weekend. I strip on fridays and saturdays and i got pretty drunk not like crazy drunk i had 6 or so shots of crown. Anyway i was coming home and i got pulled over. I parked for a second in a open parking lot to make a call so it seemed sketchy to the officer. I figured for sure i would get DUI and i was already thinking about how would i get to work so on and so on. The cop just wanted to see why i was in the parking lot so he didn't test me or anything i got lucky. I figure he deffently could smell that i had been drinking and somehow i don't know how i got let off.

I feel this is kind of like a second chance. On my way home i heard this great song i really related to my life and i realized this is my time to change. Saturday was the last time i have had a drink. I know this is my oppurtunity it won't be easy but i have to try.

Oh good for you Jackie.. You will feel so good not only about yourself, but sleeping and everything.. I have not drink for 19 days now., and when I think about a drink I think about how good I have been sleeping and I don't want to ruin it.. God bless you Jackie pm if you need to I know what you are going through.. Hugs..

 

[justanobserver]

Hi Jackie and welcome to the Recovery Forums!

My name is Norm and I am a recovering alcoholic and addict. I am so happy you posted here and are reaching out for folks who care. You came to the right place!

I invte you to check the various subforums here in Recovery and ny quesiton, please do not hesitate to PM me opr any other Mod here. There are great folks here that post a lot and they would love to be a friend!

In the 12 Steps http://foru.ms/t3882711-12-steps-of-alcoholics-anonymous-biblical-references.html,

the first one sounds like where your at:

"1.[SIZE=-1]We admitted we were powerless over alcohol ... that our lives had become unmanageable."[/SIZE]

for so many of us, thats the hardest step on the road to recovery.

I strongly urge you to attend an AA meeting near you or Celebrate Recovery (christian "AA" style meetings)

http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/?Media=PlayFlash

http://www.celebraterecovery.com/

and again, you have any quesitons opr concerns or nbeed to talk, PM one of us Mods and we will do our best to help you.

welcome to Recovery!

 

[goldenviolet]

jackie, bless your heart. you have some hardships. you are a survivor. your life may not on track with a healthy walk; but what is a healthy walk? ... first, we have to unlearn what we have learned that took us off track. by practicing getting to where you need to be. just between you and the Lord: you have thoughts and feelings about your life and purpose. you probly wonder how on earth you will get to where you know you are in a healthy walk. God wants to teach you. He wants you to allow Him to change you. you just need to be willing to give Him all your heart in the Salvation of Jesus' gift.... right now, God is blessing you. He is always there waiting for us. everyday is new. you have here on this forum a safe refuge to learn, unlearn, and talk openly; where you'll be recieved with love and exceptance, support and prayer. there will be other reasources in your life to build you up too. God's word, prayer, a good church family. just start surrounding yourself with healthy gifts of the Lord; that will teach you, and re-new your mind and shape your path.

it is quite a job to learn how to walk a healthy walk. it's not just you. for us all, it's an everyday thing. we are commanded to support eachother, with same love God has given us... while we are in our trials and struggles with our walk/sin, there is 100% love, forgiveness, mercy, exceptance and even adoration from God, for just being His.

when you do badly, you feel badly...
when you do good, you feel good...

the bible teaches us that inspite of our feelings of unworthiness and doubts, that our feelings are meant to shape us, not at all God condemning us. in a nut shell: whatever you feel: unworthy or doubtful: God's love has enough depth to be endlessly pacient and merciful.

i'll exsplaine more if you have questions.
~ with much love, dee

 

[BlessEwe]

It does sound like God has had His protection around you, and He does have a wonderful plan for you.

I am in recovery and have found that just like you, everyone in the meetings ect. used alcohol/drugs because of painful pasts.

You are so not alone and will find wonderful support and friendships that will change your life.

When we are using alcohol/ drugs we make choices we normally would not.

Making the choice of drinking and driving not only puts your life in jeopardy but other lives as well.
My father was killed by a 19 year old drunk driver 41 years ago. This mans choice really messed up many lives and he is still living with his choice today.

You have so much ahead of you and taking the first step into recovery is hard, but you will find God is right there and so many will surround you in your sobriety.

This Day all of His Mercies are New!

 

[Dralan]

Welcome to the forums Jackie. You are not alone in this. Ive been an alcoholic for over 20 years and now I have 90days sober. You are the only one who can make that choice, and with Gods help I know you can do it. Hang in there.......