Hey,
I was just wondering about the kinds of patterns I follow on a daily, hourly, minutely basis
. I don't know if I have any kind of problem, but I feel that whenever I'm at all concerned about my health, it's best to seek for some answers (rather safe than sorry).
My main patterns that I've seemed to develop involve the way I eat. It's pretty difficult to explain, but I've become curious about it and thought someone might have some insight.
First, I eat by threes. Let me give an example. If I have one of those Pringles mini-boxes for school, I'll open the box, count the pringles, sort the pringles, and then eat them. I'm counting them to see if the amount is even or odd. I always have to eat chips going from right, to left, to right, and always ending on the right. If the total amount of chips is an even number, say 22, I'll begin chewing on the left side of my mouth so I can end chewing a chip on the right side of my mouth. Make sense
? I'm sorting the chips based upon their defects. If they have little holes, chips, or are just broken, I put them in a pile to be chewed on the left side of my mouth (I prefer the right to the left and therefore the left gets stuck with the worse quality chips
). When I finally get around to eating the counted and sorted chips, depending on the amount (remember, if it's even I start chewing on the left, if it's odd I start chewing on the right) I will start chewing with the chosen sides of my mouth.
I know this is strange. I found this out when my friends started watching me eat, because I do this with all my food.
The pattern varies in intracacy based on the kind of food I'm eating, but most of the time I don't even notice it. I always used to hold my knife in my right hand and fork in the left, but when I started preferring the right I thought that the knife was too violent/grotesque for the right and have since swapped positions (I was about nine). It all started when I was about eight and I startedgrinding my molars against my gums in patterns of seven or three. It was a weekly ritual that I still follow occasionally.
There are more things I do, I suppose. I don't know what to do to make them stop. I've tried not to eat in patterns but it makes me feel strange, (I know this will sound very odd) like I'm missing something inside????
I'm fourteen and I've heard all the stories. I don't want my obsessions and compulsions to define me. Is this something I should worry about? Should I just try not to focus on this stuff? Seriously, I'm open to anything!
In Christ Alone,
missionette
I was just wondering about the kinds of patterns I follow on a daily, hourly, minutely basis
. I don't know if I have any kind of problem, but I feel that whenever I'm at all concerned about my health, it's best to seek for some answers (rather safe than sorry). My main patterns that I've seemed to develop involve the way I eat. It's pretty difficult to explain, but I've become curious about it and thought someone might have some insight.
First, I eat by threes. Let me give an example. If I have one of those Pringles mini-boxes for school, I'll open the box, count the pringles, sort the pringles, and then eat them. I'm counting them to see if the amount is even or odd. I always have to eat chips going from right, to left, to right, and always ending on the right. If the total amount of chips is an even number, say 22, I'll begin chewing on the left side of my mouth so I can end chewing a chip on the right side of my mouth. Make sense
? I'm sorting the chips based upon their defects. If they have little holes, chips, or are just broken, I put them in a pile to be chewed on the left side of my mouth (I prefer the right to the left and therefore the left gets stuck with the worse quality chips). When I finally get around to eating the counted and sorted chips, depending on the amount (remember, if it's even I start chewing on the left, if it's odd I start chewing on the right) I will start chewing with the chosen sides of my mouth. I know this is strange. I found this out when my friends started watching me eat, because I do this with all my food
.The pattern varies in intracacy based on the kind of food I'm eating, but most of the time I don't even notice it. I always used to hold my knife in my right hand and fork in the left, but when I started preferring the right I thought that the knife was too violent/grotesque for the right and have since swapped positions (I was about nine). It all started when I was about eight and I startedgrinding my molars against my gums in patterns of seven or three. It was a weekly ritual that I still follow occasionally.
There are more things I do, I suppose. I don't know what to do to make them stop. I've tried not to eat in patterns but it makes me feel strange, (I know this will sound very odd) like I'm missing something inside????
I'm fourteen and I've heard all the stories. I don't want my obsessions and compulsions to define me. Is this something I should worry about? Should I just try not to focus on this stuff? Seriously, I'm open to anything!
In Christ Alone,
missionette
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You are much more than an illness allthough having ocd can make us feel like we are all ocd at times. I have to remember I am me and not my illness. Take care. God loves us all.
