my name is hotsauce

[mustang_94]

Wow, you are really working those steps I see. That's great. I am trying to stay sober, too. Congratulations for your success!

Hi Ruth, Don't worry about staying sober, just don't drink.I can imagine the look on your face. The first time someone said that to me in an A.A. meeting, I wanted to belt the guy. I mean if I could just not drink, why would I go to A.A. But I kept going and today I understand what he meant.I have found that when I can't see where I'm going, God will carry me.Keep coming back. I hope to see you here a lot.

 

[hotsauce5000]

update for may 2011
hi folks, i just thought i would drop in for an update.

so now i am about 2.5 years sober, and have 3 days left of my 2 year probation! im excited. no urge to go celebrate at a bar or with alcohol at all!. i am still a member at my church and attend regularly as well as some of the singles events we have there and at other places.

work has been busy so i have some income. the price of gas hurts of course since i drive a lot for my work.

it turns out that getting the breathalyser out of my truck and the resrtiction off of my drivers license is another story. when i wasordered to have one installed and my license changed, it was immediate! after several months of asking my officer about hopw to undo, the final answer was basically,,,,,,whenever they get around to it. its ok though, i have learned to just laugh at the situation instead of getting mad or frustrated.LOL in the process of talking to the state license people, i learned that in my paperwork it doesnt give a date for these items, it just says "until further released from the court". again, LOL

i am very happy to have my life back and let God be in control!

last week I had a small crisis concerning, my state issued work license. no problem, i prayed about it and jumped into action to handle it, DONE. it was renewed without a problem. it cost me some money and some time plus effort, but i am proud that i could deal with it and not worry so much.

today i was able to buy lunch for my parents on mothers day, that made me feel great.

lately i have been struggling with another issue. i am a sponsor for a friend who is totally consumed with alcohol. i asked advice from older guys about how to handle this. they all said, dont be responsible for his actions and needs, just lend a helping hand as far recovery from alcoholism goes. that seems to be what i need to do for him. in the past two years, he seems to have been able to use me like a puppet without me realizing it. (hes in such bad shape and says "i need help, will you please do------- for me" etc.) so driving across town many times taking care of things he is responsible for, not anymore. i will be supportive and helpful, but with words only.

i am in theprocess of renting a place of my own. i love my parents so much, but they have need for their garage back. all of my stuff has been there for over two years now. my goal is to weed out my things, and get organized. i want to come back and help my dad organize their garage and attic stuff, and help them sell most of it.
within the next few months i plan to relocate to a spot closer to them. the place im going is in a bad neighborhood and not near them.

thank yall for all the support and looking into my life through these updates. thank you for all the prayers.

may God be with you always

 

[hotsauce5000]

wow, time sure does fly sometimes. seems god wanted me here her to post an update i guess. i was trying to figure out why my browser was so slow so i picked a random site from my bookmarks and it was this one. of course i had to reset my password and all that.

wow, just wow, God is so good.

over two years since my last update.

july 2013

after may 2011 my life got so busy and so good I guess I didnt have time to relax and read any message boards. I was in the middle of moving stuff from my parents house when I met my future wife.

I had been praying and letting go of my control and decisions. I wanted for so long for God to send me the one he made for me. He put her in my Sunday school class. She had been there a few months and I never really met her. She always got up and left and I stayed and talked with a couple guys I knew. I asked the class for help painting the place I was moving to, then sat next to her at lunch. The following saturday we all painted the house on inside. That very day she had been invited to ride motorcycle with her long time friend. Sadly, her friend died on that bike that day, where she would have been if not painting with our class. I offered to be her escort for his funeral, we ended up spending the day together and having some pretty deep conversations. we both felt the chemistry that day but neither felt comfortable acknowledging it on such a sad day.
the following weekend we decided to go on a date. that was in the middle of june 2011. by december of that year we both knew God had made us for each other. she had also been praying that God send her the one he made for her. At a christmas outing with my parents and neices and nephew, I asked her to marry me. I wanted my parents to be there to share my happiness. we were alone on a bridge over a pond, so when we came back to my family group I announced her as my future bride.

my work has picked up and always on the run with so much life to live. my world isnt perfect, but there is a lot of happiness and God is in it. we hardly ever miss a sunday or wednesday church service.

alocohol. its been about 4.5 years since i touched the stuff and i dont miss it at all. more money in my pocket, no hangovers, and a clear head. In may I paid the FINAL anything having to do with anything from DWI case. IN texas they make you pay about 92$ a month for 3 years, and I'm finally DONE with it.

very rarely im out offroading and a couple of the guys are drinking beer, and many more in the area. when they offer me a beer an I tell them I dont drink, they just look at me funny- like theres something wrong with me. and at a restaurant when they offer beer sample or a complimentery drink and put it on the table, they are so awkward to pick it up off the table from in front of me. its weird sometimes to see peoples reaction to I DONT DRINK.

I dont make it to aa much anymore or celebrate recovery, but I do go on occassion. I do like to get an annual sobriety coin from each group. its neat to have a bag full of them that I earned and dont have to give them back if I choose not to.

if you are reading this and have not been able to stop drinking, please, give it to God and rely on him. Pray, and do what God wants you to do.

I asked God for that help, and he gave it to me.
of course I thought it would me like majic and I would just stop. God wanted me to go the hard route, through the legal system along with all their obstacles and hoops. it was not a very pleasant or cheap experience, but God brought me through it and he taught me how to be a good man. (another thing I kept praying about)

I thank God every day and try to be as grateful as I can.

I pray that my words can be helpful, that God can reach someone through them that needs to be reached.

Amen.



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