My mental problem please i need help

[Kostilaks]

My ocd creates compulsions because out of nowhere, thoughts without my will about promises to an other God pop up and, even though I know they are without my will, I worry and try to obey the compulsion. Sometimes, due to frustration, I want to stop doing the compulsions but I cant. So, my system, generates new thoughts without my will that are about new promises to an other God about not doing the old compulsion. I feel relieved and in order to trick ocd, I,maybe, act as if these new thoughts without my will, maybe, matter. I do not know why I am having these new thoughts without my will. probably, my system creates them without my will to help me to disobey the tiring compulsion. Sometimes, I accidentally, do the compulsion and I end up more worried because I cant confirm if these new thoughts without my will that help me are 100% without my will. At first, I was very worried because I was having thoughts like "why I had these thoughts without my will? why I felt relieved? are they 100% without my will? I do not know" I kept reminding myself, no matter what, never allow them to relieve me because I end up confused and more worried. After many cases like this, I realized that it is beyond my control. I have tried many times not to feel relief and not have them but I they are always there. My system generates them. and the problem is that I cant confirm 100% if they are without my will. I cant remember or I cant understand myself, the second, they pop up. I know that I want relief and I am under stress, but when they pop up I do not know why I fail to ignore them. Everytime, I know they will bring me more worries and everytime, I fail. I always say to myself no more generating these thoughts without my will and if they pop up without my will, it is better to ignore them and pray to an other God about them, than to feel relieved or try to trick ocd. The last days, these thoughts without my will are accompanied by some scary thoughts without my will about punishments. automatically, they are accompanied. so, the new compulsions are harder to disobey. When these scary thoughts without my will popped up, I tried to tell myself to forget them because I knew they will bring me many worries in the future. I failed. I overpray and try not even think the word promise and now I worry because of some new thoughts without my will that relieved me? it is like I forget and cant control myself for some seconds. Since, I tried to forget them and not have these thoughts without my will, I can come to the conclusion that they are 100% without my will, otherwise I wouldn't have them. Sometimes, these thoughts without my will are so strong and scary that I cant confirm if they are 100% without my will. Maybe it is like I am getting [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed off with myself and I try to get some relief from these new thoughts without my will. sometimes, I do not even remember what exactly are these thoughts without my will. I just have a bad feeling. instead of words without my will, they pop up like a bad feeling accompanied with some words without my will. I have asked protection from Jesus and from other Gods because I want to be sure. I asked them to protect me and no matter what not to accept promises. and that these confusing thoughts that relieve me are still thoughts without my will. but still I worry because they are accompanied with scary thoughts without my will about punishments.

 

[joshua 1 9]

I worry and try to obey the compulsion.

The Bible says to resist the devil and he will flee from you. We put it under the blood because we know the devil and his demons have to flee from the blood of Jesus. We have power and authority over all the mind battles so we can have the Mind of Christ and the Divine thoughts of God. There is a lot of teaching on google and youtube about how to have victory and overcome these mind battles.

 

[Mari17]

My ocd creates compulsions because out of nowhere, thoughts without my will about promises to an other God pop up and, even though I know they are without my will, I worry and try to obey the compulsion. Sometimes, due to frustration, I want to stop doing the compulsions but I cant. So, my system, generates new thoughts without my will that are about new promises to an other God about not doing the old compulsion. I feel relieved and in order to trick ocd, I,maybe, act as if these new thoughts without my will, maybe, matter. I do not know why I am having these new thoughts without my will. probably, my system creates them without my will to help me to disobey the tiring compulsion. Sometimes, I accidentally, do the compulsion and I end up more worried because I cant confirm if these new thoughts without my will that help me are 100% without my will. At first, I was very worried because I was having thoughts like "why I had these thoughts without my will? why I felt relieved? are they 100% without my will? I do not know" I kept reminding myself, no matter what, never allow them to relieve me because I end up confused and more worried. After many cases like this, I realized that it is beyond my control. I have tried many times not to feel relief and not have them but I they are always there. My system generates them. and the problem is that I cant confirm 100% if they are without my will. I cant remember or I cant understand myself, the second, they pop up. I know that I want relief and I am under stress, but when they pop up I do not know why I fail to ignore them. Everytime, I know they will bring me more worries and everytime, I fail. I always say to myself no more generating these thoughts without my will and if they pop up without my will, it is better to ignore them and pray to an other God about them, than to feel relieved or try to trick ocd. The last days, these thoughts without my will are accompanied by some scary thoughts without my will about punishments. automatically, they are accompanied. so, the new compulsions are harder to disobey. When these scary thoughts without my will popped up, I tried to tell myself to forget them because I knew they will bring me many worries in the future. I failed. I overpray and try not even think the word promise and now I worry because of some new thoughts without my will that relieved me? it is like I forget and cant control myself for some seconds. Since, I tried to forget them and not have these thoughts without my will, I can come to the conclusion that they are 100% without my will, otherwise I wouldn't have them. Sometimes, these thoughts without my will are so strong and scary that I cant confirm if they are 100% without my will. Maybe it is like I am getting [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed off with myself and I try to get some relief from these new thoughts without my will. sometimes, I do not even remember what exactly are these thoughts without my will. I just have a bad feeling. instead of words without my will, they pop up like a bad feeling accompanied with some words without my will. I have asked protection from Jesus and from other Gods because I want to be sure. I asked them to protect me and no matter what not to accept promises. and that these confusing thoughts that relieve me are still thoughts without my will. but still I worry because they are accompanied with scary thoughts without my will about punishments.

OCD makes us second-guess and over-analyze our thoughts and feelings. Have you been able to find some good help for your OCD? I can recommend some good online resources if you can't find any in person (although for a bad case of OCD, getting a therapist is probably your best bet).