My ocd fear is making promises to God.
I remember having some thoughts without my will about a church in neos kosmos.
I do not remember what the thoughts without my will exactly were, probably about a promise to God not to return to that church and about a punishment in case breaking it. the only thing I remember after that, was me telling myself stuff like "better not ever return to that church"
there was a compulsion about that church in neos kosmos and ocd wanted me to redo it and in order to avoid redoing it, these thoughts without my will popped up, due to frustration (counter-ocd)
I felt relieved cause I did not have to redo the compulsion but scared for the words that popped up without my will. and since I cant remember much how can I be sure if they were without my will?
ocd: what if for a second you meant it in order to avoid redoing the compulsion?
And what my words without my will were?
Not to return in that church in neos kosmos to redo the compulsion?
or
Not to return in general?
Since the compulsion had a cross sign to be done, I worry if these thoughts without my will popped during the cross sign part.
Months before that, I told God I would validate a real promise only if I do the cross sign 3 times. Since the compulsion had a cross sign for an other reason (as a compulsion) I worry if the thoughts without my will about a promise were popped up during the cross sign.
ocd: Maybe the thoughts without your will, were semi-intentional and for 2-3 seconds they were popping up, due to frustration, while on the cross sign part. Maybe it looked like as if you were validating a real promise.
I remember other times overpraying to God and asking for protection from these promises. But I don't remember if I asked protection before or after the church in neos kosmos.
ocd: what if there was a maybe valid promise that you forgot?
There is a chance I passed from that church in neos kosmos while on taxi, on my way to the airport.
I was thinking about this and was thinking stuff like "they were just thoughts without my will and maybe some not too scary words without my will. maybe the word "curse" without my will popped up, they do not count these thoughts without my will" (I am not sure about the word "curse" if I thought it or something similar to this) 1-2-3 seconds, almost, I think, after that I walked into a room with a tv on and the woman was telling a story and used the word "curse". I started worrying. Then, she started telling a story, i do not know if it was fictional or not, that a woman asked from God to be turned on stone and He did it.
I freaked cause that reminded me my ocd worries about promsies without my will to God.
I was writing about this coincidence on reddit. As I was thinking to write stuff like " was that a coincidence or a maybe sign?" at that second, I think, my grandma told my father something like " they are signs, they cant be cleaned"
ocd: it looks maybe as an answer to your question. maybe this double coincidence was a maybe sign from a God to tell you that your ocd thoughts without your will are maybe valid. since you spend so time to analyze them, He send you a sign to tell you that the thoughts without your will are valid.
Was not that a scary coincidence? also ocd tells me
ocd: there may be a God who does not care about your ocd.
I remember having some thoughts without my will about a church in neos kosmos.
I do not remember what the thoughts without my will exactly were, probably about a promise to God not to return to that church and about a punishment in case breaking it. the only thing I remember after that, was me telling myself stuff like "better not ever return to that church"
there was a compulsion about that church in neos kosmos and ocd wanted me to redo it and in order to avoid redoing it, these thoughts without my will popped up, due to frustration (counter-ocd)
I felt relieved cause I did not have to redo the compulsion but scared for the words that popped up without my will. and since I cant remember much how can I be sure if they were without my will?
ocd: what if for a second you meant it in order to avoid redoing the compulsion?
And what my words without my will were?
Not to return in that church in neos kosmos to redo the compulsion?
or
Not to return in general?
Since the compulsion had a cross sign to be done, I worry if these thoughts without my will popped during the cross sign part.
Months before that, I told God I would validate a real promise only if I do the cross sign 3 times. Since the compulsion had a cross sign for an other reason (as a compulsion) I worry if the thoughts without my will about a promise were popped up during the cross sign.
ocd: Maybe the thoughts without your will, were semi-intentional and for 2-3 seconds they were popping up, due to frustration, while on the cross sign part. Maybe it looked like as if you were validating a real promise.
I remember other times overpraying to God and asking for protection from these promises. But I don't remember if I asked protection before or after the church in neos kosmos.
ocd: what if there was a maybe valid promise that you forgot?
There is a chance I passed from that church in neos kosmos while on taxi, on my way to the airport.
I was thinking about this and was thinking stuff like "they were just thoughts without my will and maybe some not too scary words without my will. maybe the word "curse" without my will popped up, they do not count these thoughts without my will" (I am not sure about the word "curse" if I thought it or something similar to this) 1-2-3 seconds, almost, I think, after that I walked into a room with a tv on and the woman was telling a story and used the word "curse". I started worrying. Then, she started telling a story, i do not know if it was fictional or not, that a woman asked from God to be turned on stone and He did it.
I freaked cause that reminded me my ocd worries about promsies without my will to God.
I was writing about this coincidence on reddit. As I was thinking to write stuff like " was that a coincidence or a maybe sign?" at that second, I think, my grandma told my father something like " they are signs, they cant be cleaned"
ocd: it looks maybe as an answer to your question. maybe this double coincidence was a maybe sign from a God to tell you that your ocd thoughts without your will are maybe valid. since you spend so time to analyze them, He send you a sign to tell you that the thoughts without your will are valid.
Was not that a scary coincidence? also ocd tells me
ocd: there may be a God who does not care about your ocd.
