my eldest son's trial

[leftBrainer]

HI Dee!

I know you... we've meet before... you were once a site moderator in the SWS section.

anyways, I don't deny that the threads sort of off topic, but maybe people who live with people who suffer bipolar also needs some love too. I really felt compassion for you that you have to bear a burden so great. And it's do awesome that the people here are so understanding despite also having a burden to bear! Praise the Lord!

yet it never seem to make me thought of how similar my mom's situation and yours is. My mom also used to be a "miss perfect" and then family life, living with a son with bipolar pulled her down all a sudden. It was sad...

your burden was far greater though, thank God He gave you such a great heart to bear it this far.

but I believe God has always a purpose behind everything. reminds me of the song I've heard in 'touched by an angel'... When the main character(an angel, Monica) told an experienced angel(Tesse) that she "couldn't see the plan"... Tesse sings:

The Lord moves in mysterious ways,
His has wonders to perform...
He plans his footsteps on the sea,
and He rides on every storm...

hope I get the lines right... will be praying for you Dee

 

[goldenviolet]

my family has officially disowned me... every mistake i've ever made is nailled across my door and being counted against me. i'm saddened. i'm crushed. but for some strange reason, i can't discribe; i have a comfort tucked away in my soul, that somewhere in the future, things will reblossom. thank you for being here for me. it's nice that tears aren't unnoticed, and thay compassion for my broken heart is found. xo dee

 

[leftBrainer]

Wow... that's totally awful. I never knew it would end up your family disowning you. I am filled with compassion for you.

sigh... it just doesn't feel right huh? How could ANYONE see God's plan at work at a time like this? How co-

Hey what you said reminds me of this verse I learned not long ago!

I alone know the plans I have for you, plans to bring you prosperity and not disaster, plans to bring about the future you hope for. Then you will call to me. You will come and pray to me, and I will answer you. You will seek me, and you will find me because you will seek me with all your heart. Yes, I say, you will find me, and I will restore you to your land. I will gather you from every country and from every place to which I have scattered you, and I will bring you back to the land from which I had sent you away into exile. I, the LORD, have spoken.' (jeremiah 29:11-14)

Dear Dee, the lord will bring you back to the land from which He had sent you away into exile. Ever hoping in the Lord, you are a shining star for those out there

 

[goldenviolet]

amen! lol. you are such a bright light! thank you. xo dee

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Your husband hasn't left you, thank goodness for that. There are good people in the world, and he is one of them. Hopefully your kids will see the error of their ways. Have a hug on me!

 

[leftBrainer]

Your husband hasn't left you, thank goodness for that. There are good people in the world, and he is one of them. Hopefully her(GoldenViolet) kids will see the error of their ways. Have a hug on me!

I can hope. For your kids to see error in their ways can be a tough thing. People suffering from bipolar have very disturbed minds, It really isn't their fault. nor it is easy for them; I have hardly see anyone with bipolar that could make to a full recovery(it was a miracle that someone did! think I saw her in some thread here...). It's going to be a life long struggle... so we have to understand them a bit too...

sigh... a lot of times I wished my brother was a normal happy person. until now I'm still wondering where is God's work in the move

 

[Alive again]

Ah dear Friend, I am so sorry to hear how things are going at your house! If I get to feeling better I will try to say more. Praying for you!

 

[goldenviolet]

(((((MIRACLE))))

my son, has told me sorry to be so hard; he still loves me... wants to sort out what happened... even if we don't see everything the same way. he wants to practice forgiveness and have healling between us.
i'm so happy and relieved. this all has been pretty hard. thank you sooooo much for all your prayers, and support!! xo dee

 

[Alive again]

Praise God, continuing in prayers!

 

[leftBrainer]

(((((MIRACLE))))

my son, has told me sorry to be so hard; he still loves me... wants to sort out what happened... even if we don't see everything the same way. he wants to practice forgiveness and have healling between us.
i'm so happy and relieved. this all has been pretty hard. thank you sooooo much for all your prayers, and support!! xo dee

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!

that is SOOOOOOOO AMAZING!! I am totally speechless! I'm reading it over and over again! PRAISE THE LORD!!

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

You and your son just might need space, and not see each other all the time. I hope he will reconcile to you, and remember to give you space.

 

[goldenviolet]

i think you are right thomas

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

We can only hope!

 

[goldenviolet]

oh boy. one court hearing is today. my son asked me to go with him for support. i feel like a mom again. lol... though he wanted me to pick him up much earlier to run errands with him. i declined. i actually thought, no-way! lol... too much too soon. i'm looking forward to supporting him in this though. it was all a misunderstanding... which i am witness too. but this will be the first time i've seen my son is weeks. i'm in "mommy heaven"... it's love amazing? it seems to wipe away all tears and suspicions, as soon as you talk it out... and ofcourse love makes you work it out, or have the resolve to stick it out. the real test is to continue to work on it so old patterns can't come back.

 

[Alive again]

praying for you!!!! and your son!!!!

 

[goldenviolet]

we had a pretty good day. all the charges were dropped on this one. it was all misunderstandings anyway. thank you for de loves!! xo dee

 

[DoubtingThomas29]

Hallejuila the charges were dropped! That sounds like a cause for going out to dinner, at Red Lobster or Outback Steak house, eat a good meal, and be happy, stay away from alcohol, that is bad stuff, drink soda, it tastes better, and leaves you sober!