1 Corinthians 13:3 "And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing."
Hi, some things to consider first of all is your motives. You seem to be very kind, just be sure to make sure your calling is about giving God glory and not yourself that is a big thing. Be where God wants you to be, it might not always be where you want to be but God knows you will do much better in something you love.
Jeremiah 18:6 " He said, Can I not do with you, Israel, as this potter does? declares the LORD. Like clay in the hand of the potter, so are you in my hand, Israel."
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Matthew 10:16 "I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves."
1 Peter 5:8 " Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
Hosea 4:6 "My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge. Because you have rejected knowledge, I also will reject you from being My priest. Since you have forgotten the law of your God, I also will forget your children."
Believe me, you will spare yourself much pain and suffering simply by understand the Bible and your promises in God, it is imperative you know this because even the devil used scripture against Jesus and when tempted he responded back in scripture.
Matthew 4:5 "Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. If you are the Son of God, he said, throw yourself down. For it is written:
He will command his angels concerning you,
and they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone."
For example if I was the devil, I could say this to you and say throw yourself down because God will protect you. If you did not know it was written do not put the Lord your God to the test how would you be able to respond or fight back? With your own wisdom? You would fail because the devil has been alive alot longer and has experience and without the Holy Spirit you just could not compete. Don't take my word for it though, you could find out for yourself but I am trying to save you from alot of suffering.
1 Thessalonians 5:21 "Test everything. Hold on to the good."
Exception is God
Deuteronomy 6:16 "Do not test the LORD your God as you did at Massah."
2 Chronicles 7:14 "if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
Romans 10:17 "Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ."
Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."
So before you jump out into the world and be a light to others, put on the armor of God, learn scripture and build a strong foundation so when the raging storms of life come you won't be shredded to pieces and understand your rights and promises in Christ so you know for yourself and so you can explain this to others as well.
Proverbs 19:2 "It is not good to have zeal without knowledge, nor to be hasty and miss the way."
Matthew 7:14 "But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."
John 16:13 "But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come."
So get the Holy Spirit and build yourself up in scriptures. Look I am not trying to crticize you, I think this is a great calling to aspire for or where God leads you but please take the verse Hosea 4:6 and proverbs 19:2 to heart. Please think things out and be sure of your faith in God, you know times are tough right now, we need to be prepared and you look like a nice guy, you have great potential but you must learn scripture!
Adam and Eve brought death by not following directions. Look what happened to them right after, they covered themselves in fig leaves and hid from God, then lied and blamed eachother. They had kids, one gets jealous because he did not offer a good enough sacrifice and instead of simply
Genesis 4:7 "If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must master it."
changing he kills his brother. I am not trying to be mean to you, in fact I love you and I really hope the best for you, I have just seen to many eager Christians without enough scripture suffer needlessly and it breaks me to see that I could have stopped it.
God bless you, as for a good starting place, Start out with the book of James or John and you should go over Genesis as well if you want to understand the merits of pro creation, reach each verse in different translations carefully and do not burn yourself out.
Ecclesiastes 12:12 "Be warned, my son, of anything in addition to them. Of making many books there is no end, and much study wearies the body."