My addiction problem..

[dabro]

Guys and Gals I've been thru many trails in my life as a christian but it seems I keep sinking deeper into a hole of drug addiction again. Not because I want to get High but just feel normal. Even though I've came along way from where I was a year ago when my ocd really started it seems another problem has occured while trying to tell docs psychatrists or whoever that my anxiety just won't go away they don't listen so I turn to other means to stop the pain like a concer patient who can't get morphine for the pain I have sliped back into the old self I was 4 years ago. Not as extreme but if it keeps up like this It looks grim. Jesus is the answer to this I know but I would never of had this problem if it was'nt for my OCD. I don't struggle with women I just want to take care of one and have kids and make her as happy as possible no more selfishness no more it's me it's me etc... but there is this hollowness inside me I know God is there because of conviction not one day has went by since I got born again that I have'nt thought about Him. It just looks like I'm going to need more support to break this habit so please pray that I will pray that I will seek God First In my life that I will be able to withstand the pressure of life and it's trials and Proclaim Victory that I did my best I know it's not to late I just need God's love flowing thru me again please help me Father please take away these desires that so destroy me and rekindle the flame within me to sing from the tops of my lungs I LOVE YOU.... Thanks guys for all the support when I needed it the most.

 

[Jayangel81]

While I am very limited on what I can say because of the rules, I will pray for you. I have had similar instances with drugs in the past.

Does your church have any type of support groups for this?

If not there are plenty outside of church. Please do get help.

My friend if you want you can PM me about this, I have experiance as far as drugs vs trying to feel normal.

You need to speak with God about this and confess, repent and ask Him for forgiveness.

Ephesians 5:18 And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit;

Being drunk back than was very common, everyone was getting drunk (just like today heh) While this is speaking about alcahol, no person should be drunk (be under the influence) of anything but the Holy Spirit.

Have you been baptised with the Holy Spirit yet Dabro?

And it really sounds like you want to stop, and I am proud of you for wanting to. This can be overcome through Him.

You are far from being the only one, do not be so hard on yourself, God will help you just like He did me and many other Christians

 

[annrobert]

Dabro,
you really are trying to serve Jesus and he sees that .You want to get over this addicition and worship Jesus and this makes Him happy.It sounds like you are really struggling .Have you approached a doctor to find out if you need rehab or something.Just a thought as it may help you.Also have you asked a doctor whether you need medication for anxiety and have you told them all your symptoms, have you been diagnosed with ocd? You will get over this .wishing you the best.
annrobert

 

[dabro]

Thank you all yes I've been baptistised in the spirit not in the symbolic way yet but God is really moving right now in my life he's been showing me this for a while now but I started to just talk to him and he responded in love what my heart desired I think that I need to pray and talk to God all day keep my focus on him and his truth Ya I have OCD and it in the past has blinded me in many ways but right now as I type I feel God moving in me producing this fruit showing me the good I have done and how far I've come through out this year I think I have came to the place where I don't need these things that hold me down but He is the answer to it all. When I said it was easy when I found out how to ignore my obsessions I take that back there will be times where it seems hopeless but I have noticed that I'm stronger today then I was yesterday. and thank u who pray for me God and I are starting to connect again and that is what I yearn the most. thank u all so much and keep me in your prayers as I will keep u in mine....

 

[keryakos]

Well Dabro i i used to abuse drugs ..not illegal drugs mind you but i used to abuse prescription drugs it wasn't an addiction it was wreckless behavior on my part ..and like you im guessing i did it to numb the pain ...or just as an escape ...its not good ..
i had a liver infection in 2001 and im pretty sure it was because my liver was weakened .
ill be praying for you dabro ..

 

[Jayangel81]

Thank you all yes I've been baptistised in the spirit not in the symbolic way yet but God is really moving right now in my life he's been showing me this for a while now but I started to just talk to him and he responded in love what my heart desired I think that I need to pray and talk to God all day keep my focus on him and his truth Ya I have OCD and it in the past has blinded me in many ways but right now as I type I feel God moving in me producing this fruit showing me the good I have done and how far I've come through out this year I think I have came to the place where I don't need these things that hold me down but He is the answer to it all. When I said it was easy when I found out how to ignore my obsessions I take that back there will be times where it seems hopeless but I have noticed that I'm stronger today then I was yesterday. and thank u who pray for me God and I are starting to connect again and that is what I yearn the most. thank u all so much and keep me in your prayers as I will keep u in mine....

Keep fighting the good fight of Faith and let Him do the rest

 

[Noah03]

Dabro, who do you have in your life you can be accountable to? And how many other people know you have this problem. The important thing is to get close friends/relatives to hold you accountable and you need to let your life be an open book to them. I have went through some serious struggles lately and this has become my decision. Remember anything hidden will be brought out into the open, so the key is don't let anything be hidden!
When we look in scripture we see that never were the apostles alone, and if they were it was only for a very short time. No man is an island. We need others in our lives for encouragment and accountability.

 

[hisbloodformysins]

Hi Dabro,

God cares about you! He knows your pain and how you feel and he isn't distant from you but very near you. Often God's healing is already there for the taking.... it's the still small voice inside your heart or the comforting word that he gives to you that day, or it's an act of obediance, something that he is leading you to do today, right now. Inorder to receive his healing we have to take it one day at a time in following him. It's easy to get overwhelmed when we are looking at the big picture and cannot see a way out. Remember, God isn't the thunder or a strong wind but a still small voice and he is present with you today. I bet if you take the time to consider what is him, you'll realize what it is. I encourage you to take time to do that today. And remember that in your own strenght you cannot do anything. Maybe that's the problem, you are relying on your own strength and ability, maybe. God can help you, look for his deliverance and go on through your day as if you trust him to do it.

Lord please clear this man's head of the noise and the things that are not of you, and the bondages that try to keep him in chains... clear the noise and lead him in the truth and help him realize who is in you.

God Bless,

HB

 

[stacii]

Dabro, who do you have in your life you can be accountable to? And how many other people know you have this problem. The important thing is to get close friends/relatives to hold you accountable and you need to let your life be an open book to them. I have went through some serious struggles lately and this has become my decision. Remember anything hidden will be brought out into the open, so the key is don't let anything be hidden!
When we look in scripture we see that never were the apostles alone, and if they were it was only for a very short time. No man is an island. We need others in our lives for encouragment and accountability.

Indeed! Christians need each other for support!

 

[dabro]

yes, I went thru the struggle of withdrawels but I'm comming out of it. PRAISE GOD. My psychologist is my account partner and I'll be losing her soon because she's being traded out by the state. But as for me I don't think playing doctor is a good thing I have no clue what hole I'm digging when I do that but I met this women she's 18 where just friends but she is very understanding there. She not a christian but she says that I have her to lean on!!! I'm hoping one day God can make fruit of our relationship and maybe she can become my life long account partner but it is His Will for my life Thank You All for everything and trust me I can do this I just need to open up and not over react when I fill the pressure of my OCD....

 

[RachelZ]

Hey Dabro...sorry you're suffering like this...and I bet God is sorry too! I really pray that He will help you find a way through this. If you can get professional addiction help that would be great. Sometimes the problem with just going cold turkey and not dealing with why you had to take the drugs means you may turn to other addictions...be that meetings, alcohol, shopping whatever. The trouble is a lot of other addictions are more socially acceptable so go unnoticed and unchecked...if that makes sense. People can be really pleased you're clean not knowing that you may be suffering with the addiction in another area. You prolly know a lot of this already so sorry if it sounds patronising. And please don't let any Christians you may come accross make you feel any worse about your situation than you already do. I used to work in a drug and alcohol rehab and I would think "There but for the grace of God go I". I know what a tough one this is to crack but you sound like you have the determination to go for it coupled with the humility that only God can really help you beat this. What was said about being accountable is good advice too...I'm so pleased you felt you could be honest here! An old cliche which has some truth to it is a problem shared is a problem halved and whilst I wouldn't go that far with the division I do think that owning a problem and being honest about it puts you more firmly on the road to recovery. Hope I haven't said anything out of turn...take care, Rachel

 

[dabro]

No, your fine Rachel I'm just so consumed with guilt of this promblem. I don't believe anyone has the right to judge anyone except Christ. And If any thing comes across as offensive I just absorb it and move on. My church teaches alot about not judging Ya, I smoke ciggerettes and fall into some temptation does'nt mean I don't know Jesus. But no know one has said anything offensive like that. Thank you Rachel for your kind heart. and understanding that I'm that sensetive. But I used to be that Proud christian who always looked at others and would judge but Pride comes before the fall. and I just try to make it the best I can dealing with this disorder. but it's Okay Really I just need to not over react when it gets bad that is a coping skill I need.

 

[RachelZ]

Hi Dabro...wasn't meaning anyone on here...but I know sometimes Christians can be extra serious about certain sins...and yet to my mind someone who is addicted to food and very overweight may have an addiction problem but that might be laughed at where drugs and cigarretes are frowned upon. I don't envy ANYONE giving up smoking cos I can see the attraction in it and how difficult it would be to give up...have had the odd cigar myself...and if you asked most people to give up tea or coffee we'd be really worried! I remember doing some training at the rehab. and they were describing the effects of a certain substance...we had to guess what it was. Heroin maybe? Ors eomthing else really strong? Nope...it was caffeine. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying tea or coffee or food are bad substances any more than I think alcohol is...but lots of these things can become socially acceptable addiction substances. Guess what I'm trying to say is no-one has a right to judge you and it doesn't seem fair that one form of addiction is so frowned upon whilst others may be laughed at. You could be a tea total, caffeine free, absolutely at your correct weight person and still not be a man after God's own heart. Please don't feel guilty if you're seeking to overcome this...I've come to understand that guilt is a poor motivator...unless it leads to swift repentance if it's valid guilt. And also, please don't feel guilty for the pain behind the addiction...that's like telling someone adddicted to morphine that their cancer is something they should feel bad about! Yes sometimes there are things we do which add to our pain but a lot of it can come from others' sin or living in a sinful world. You have a lot of pain and I can undertsnad why if there's nothing being offered to alleviate that pain drugs may seem attractive. You don't need me to tell you it'll make things worse, I'm sure you are aware of that anyway but when you are hurting in the moment, tommorow may seem so far away as to become seemingly irrelevent. I hope you can get some proper help, support and encouragement...you need help not just for the addiction but for why you have it and I pray God provides a healthy alernative to drugs...whether that be a miracle or a gradual process...hope I haven't said anything wrong...take care, Rachel