mourning the loss of smoking

[dkteel]

i can honestly say that i have been convicted of smoking for years and have tried to quit but never have. i have smoked for 19 years and always said i would be able to say i smoked for 20 so the time is now! god has also spoke to me that prayers i have prayed for years aren't being answered because of my denial of the conviction. 'how can he trust me with much when i can't handle the little'.
well 3 days ago (today is day 3) i laid them down. not only for the obvious health reasons but because it is almost taboo to smoke anywhere now. i LOVE smoking, it was my me time as i only did it by myself because no one i am with or run around with smoke. they were my stress-reliever, my food, my drink, my time for me, etc and i will miss that dearly.
i have prayed and quoted scripture for the last 2 days and to be honest it hasn't been as bad as the times i'd tried in the past. this time it is truly my vision of God before me that is making it easier. i ask that you continue to pray for me that God will take away all the feelings and thoughts i have about smoking and that they will never return. i can not wait for the day that i wake up and can't even remember being a smoker! your continued prayer would be greatly appreciated

blessings - kari

 

[MomOf2KD]

Your story sounds so much like mine it's scary. I've smoked since I was 14 years old, so about 20 years now. I smoked heavily for about 99% of that time, between 2 to 3 packs per day. It's a wonder I can still breathe! At any rate, I've been convicted about it as well and am struggling with it also. I felt like that's one of the reasons why some of my prayers have not been answered and could ultimately be why I was too weak of a Christian to combat the disbelief that crept into my life 5 years ago. Made for a miserable 5 years without God, I'll tell you that. Served me right, though. I chose smoking over Him which equated to my basically giving smoking an idol status.

I'll be praying for you and would appreciate the same. This will be the hardest thing I've -ever- done in my entire life, as I'm sure it ranks up there for you as well.

God bless.

 

[SirKenny85]

I'll be praying for the both of you. It's hard for someone who has never smoked to understand what a great struggle it is, and how it differs from person to person. Keep up the good work both of you and stay away from those cigs : )

 

[CraftsForKids]

I never smoked, but I will pray for you!!!