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GodDreamer
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i've grown up in a Christian house hold...i was pretty much born under a pew, i guess you could say 
...although it wasn't until i was four years old, that i decided to give my life to the Lord. it wasn't until i was in middle school, in 7th grade that i decided to actually get serious about the serving God...middle school for me was probably the worse years i could have gone through...ugh...any ways, i went to my youth group's musical called "No Where Inbetween"...it's similar to "Heaven's Gates and Hell's Flames", and that night God revealed to me that i wasn't living the life any more...that i had slowly walked away...so, through many tears, i gave my life back to Him...then came high school...my freshman year was great for me! it was the first time ever that i actually had Christian friends, God blessed me abundantly...He also blessed me with my best friend, she and i have been probably through everything together...i also, found a new youth group that was in town and asked her to come with me...there she and i grew so much and a few months later she and i recieved the Baptism of the Holy Spirit with the Gift of Tongues...i recieved it first and then so did she, when her parents found out that she recieved the BHS, they were scared b/c they didn't believe in it, and they're not actually Christians. so they tried to look for reasons to take her out of the youth group, but that didn't happen until later....
then my tenth grade year hit...the year that i struggled with depression the most!! i had been threatened by one of my "friends", i was constantly getting into fights with my parents as well as my other friends...i was also dealing with my best friend's problems...which had to do with self-esteem...and i finally snapped and tried to kill myself...thankfully i didn't succeed! but about a month later my best friend, who had also been undergoing a lot of stress at the time, began cutting herself...during that whole time God gave me several verses. Proverbs 3:5-6 and Psalm 23. He made me realize that He had such huge plans for me and that through everything He was going to take care of me, that all i need to do is just trust Him and lean on Him.
Just this few months a lone, God has shown me so much! For the longest time i've felt like God has called me to be a pastor
...and i still think He is...but for later in life...ultimately, i think God has something really huge in store for me...something that i probably won't realize what it is until the end, and then i'll be like, "oh, so that's what it was." i just really feel as though God is calling me to something bigger than i can see, and i really think it has something to do with reaching out to teen girls who struggle with self-esteem issues...like this summer, i'm going to be speaking at a Girl's Retreat, and i'll be speaking on self-esteem.
as of right now all i want is to get really on fire for God...to get to the point that i'm so saturated with the Holy Spirit that even my shadow heals people...i want to get to the point where i can literly put hospitals out of business b/c all the sick are healed...i want to get to the point that the Holy Spirit just completely shines right through my, like He did through Moses when he came back down the mountain from communing with God...i want to effect and to change the world around me... and i just want to be completely anointed, that every word that comes out of me is just drenched with anointing...i not only want this for me, but for all of us.
...although it wasn't until i was four years old, that i decided to give my life to the Lord. it wasn't until i was in middle school, in 7th grade that i decided to actually get serious about the serving God...middle school for me was probably the worse years i could have gone through...ugh...any ways, i went to my youth group's musical called "No Where Inbetween"...it's similar to "Heaven's Gates and Hell's Flames", and that night God revealed to me that i wasn't living the life any more...that i had slowly walked away...so, through many tears, i gave my life back to Him...then came high school...my freshman year was great for me! it was the first time ever that i actually had Christian friends, God blessed me abundantly...He also blessed me with my best friend, she and i have been probably through everything together...i also, found a new youth group that was in town and asked her to come with me...there she and i grew so much and a few months later she and i recieved the Baptism of the Holy Spirit with the Gift of Tongues...i recieved it first and then so did she, when her parents found out that she recieved the BHS, they were scared b/c they didn't believe in it, and they're not actually Christians. so they tried to look for reasons to take her out of the youth group, but that didn't happen until later....then my tenth grade year hit...the year that i struggled with depression the most!! i had been threatened by one of my "friends", i was constantly getting into fights with my parents as well as my other friends...i was also dealing with my best friend's problems...which had to do with self-esteem...and i finally snapped and tried to kill myself...thankfully i didn't succeed! but about a month later my best friend, who had also been undergoing a lot of stress at the time, began cutting herself...during that whole time God gave me several verses. Proverbs 3:5-6 and Psalm 23. He made me realize that He had such huge plans for me and that through everything He was going to take care of me, that all i need to do is just trust Him and lean on Him.
Just this few months a lone, God has shown me so much! For the longest time i've felt like God has called me to be a pastor
...and i still think He is...but for later in life...ultimately, i think God has something really huge in store for me...something that i probably won't realize what it is until the end, and then i'll be like, "oh, so that's what it was." i just really feel as though God is calling me to something bigger than i can see, and i really think it has something to do with reaching out to teen girls who struggle with self-esteem issues...like this summer, i'm going to be speaking at a Girl's Retreat, and i'll be speaking on self-esteem.as of right now all i want is to get really on fire for God...to get to the point that i'm so saturated with the Holy Spirit that even my shadow heals people...i want to get to the point where i can literly put hospitals out of business b/c all the sick are healed...i want to get to the point that the Holy Spirit just completely shines right through my, like He did through Moses when he came back down the mountain from communing with God...i want to effect and to change the world around me... and i just want to be completely anointed, that every word that comes out of me is just drenched with anointing...i not only want this for me, but for all of us.
