I'd like to ask for prayers for mercy again. It's pretty clear but I'll recap for people who don't know me:
My biggest fear is that through apostasy (Hebrews 6:4-6, and idolatry passages/straying), selling my soul (Mark 8:36), or the unpardonable sin (Blasphemy of the HS Matthew 12, Mark 3, Luke 12) I have lost my salvation or been proven unsaved and now cannot be saved. I fear God hates me. A praise song came on my SoundCloud playlist when I was cleaning and it just made me cry because I think He will reject and hurt me. And the devil is trying to lure me to his side... make it like God's the enemy (He's not, I know fault is with me) and I feel like I'm losing everything.
My biggest fear is that through apostasy (Hebrews 6:4-6, and idolatry passages/straying), selling my soul (Mark 8:36), or the unpardonable sin (Blasphemy of the HS Matthew 12, Mark 3, Luke 12) I have lost my salvation or been proven unsaved and now cannot be saved. I fear God hates me. A praise song came on my SoundCloud playlist when I was cleaning and it just made me cry because I think He will reject and hurt me. And the devil is trying to lure me to his side... make it like God's the enemy (He's not, I know fault is with me) and I feel like I'm losing everything.