MAY TRIGGER I just binged!

[kamikat]

I feel so awful. I can't believe that I did that. It had been about a month, the longest I've gone without a binge in years. I feel like it's been building up over the last couple of days. I've been feeling kinda down, I missed church this week because of a sinus thing, I've been feeling discouraged a bit in my faith, the kids have been bothering me. Sunday evening, I had a crying fit over a faith issue. All day Monday, I was down and just inches away from crying all day. Today started out bad and got worse. Today was grocery day. I sat looking through my cookbook, trying to plan the family meals and do my list. I kept getting more and more depressed. I have food allergies. Each of my sons are allergic to different things. With every passing day, someone in my family is allergic or sensitive to a new thing. Then, my youngest son and I hit the store. One of his favorite snack items had changed the recipe to now include something he's allergic to. They were out of something else we needed. Liam had to go potty twice while there. It just kept building. Finally, in the snack aisle, I staring at the wall of microwave popcorn looking for some without dairy (both sons allergic) and there wasn't a single box without dairy. I lost it. I started crying right there in the middle of the store. I can't believe I got things that I shouldn't have and ate them on the drive home. I feel so dissappointed in myself. I feel like this is the first time that the binge was a conscious decision. In the past, I felt like I was out of control and it was just happening. This was different. I knew that if I did this, I would feel better. In a way, it's true. I don't feel like I'm on the verge of tears, like I had been for a couple days. But I do hate what I've done.
kamikat

 

[madison1101]

Sweetie, having a good cry is okay to do when life overwhelms you. It sounds like you need to start practicing some self-soothing, like I have to all the time. Life just keeps building up the stressors in my life, and it looks like that happens to you too. If I don't self-soothe, I set myself up for binges. Going to the grocery store is particularly dangerous for me when I am vulnerable.

Get yourself some herbal tea and some classical music and spend 20-30 minutes a day with the tea and music. Light some candles. Do deep breathing. Consider it like taking your vitamins. It is very therapeutic.

Another alternative is to take walks in the nice weather. Or, pray and meditate. Whatever you do, you must do daily. It will help you cope with the stuff that life throws at you.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[katey]

i have been binging for the past 2 hours. i had starved myself because i didnt feel like eating and then because my stoamch was so empty and i was soo hungary i just ate anything and everything. and now i have beenmaking myself sick i hate feeling like this its horrible. so i can agree with how your feeling. but madison i agree finding somethin else to calm you down is always a good thing to do i find. it just helps relax everythingi hope you feel better soon xxx