HannahElizaW
God Says It, THAT Settles It!
Both my father and mother had disabilities. One's reproductive organs wouldn't allow to bear children from whatever had, to a degree, destructed it; and the other went through cancer and had numerous and understandable "faults".Tell that to those with disabilities that prevent them from doing so, those who try but keep getting rejected, etc.
Out of that standpoint elected me. Since childbirth (I'm the firstborn) I have had operations and surgeries galore. I was "diagnosed" with Spontaneous Genetic Mutation Disorder (SGMD) when I was young. I was born with a crippled pinky on my left hand..I personally believe it was cause of the mutation in an essence that I had "more bone than skin" so my finger is always curled and there's stitches from the operation when I was, I think, 2 years of age.
When I was 3, the doctors noticed a cyst growing in my left jawline, and when I was 5, I went through another operation where they had to take out several teeth including my wisdom tooth, a canine, and some molars.. they had to empty the fluid from the cyst and operated it to a degree to where I am unable to "grow" more teeth in that specific area.
With SGMD I went through early stages of puberty at the age of 7(-ish) and didn't "properly" finish until I was about 9-10. Can you imagine being in the 4th/5th grade and being teased with names such as Cyclops or Ogre because the average height that stemmed to the majority of my grade at that time was 4"8 and I was at least 5"4..?! Not only that, but I undergone simple puberty traits and was lead to other illnesses.
I had acne, warts, and moles growing. I battled skin tags, I kid you not, and had multiple surgeries to remove them. When I was 12 I battled Acid Reflux that was more severe than people could imagine hence my esophagus produced more of the "bad breath" symptom than I wish I could handle. My right eye has an astigmatism and my left eye could be legally "blind" for all we know.
With the growth spurt, came big feet. Keep in mind I'm a girl, right?, and the average shoe size for an american woman is anywhere between 6-9. I wear, of course, 13-W in men's.
As of today, I suffer from Basal Cell Nevis Syndrome, and have been battling Basal Cell Skin Cancer since 10/10/2013. I was officially diagnosed with Obessive Compulsive Disorder, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder back in December 2014, and would've been diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder if it wasn't for my dad being strongly against have the D-word (depression) on my 'file', per se.
From what I explained to you, can you imagine what I look like? I'm a 17 year old with acne, a weird looking eye, missing teeth, constant bad breath no matter how much or how severe I brush, cancer on the outside of both her eyes, a "crippled" pinky that doesn't flex properly, feet so big I have to mostly shop for shoes in the men's isle, and is constantly worried and anxious due to her mental illnesses. Is that unbearable to imagine? What would you think of me if you saw me? It wouldn't be pleasent would it?
Now.. if God wants you to get married, then by all means you should do it. Forcing Him or getting mad at Him really won't do much.. and I respect your attempts at getting attention, but maybe you're taking a wrong approach at it? I won't give you "love advice" since I'm asexual and would just recommend watching Prince of Egypt again and again and again, but I do suggest looking into the verses in 1 Corinthians 7:32-33.
In my walks with God, and the constant stem of people saying "a life without marriage sounds depressing", I think those verses help, and they might even help you, if you wish..
Again, to me, the "perpetual single" sounds okay to me for obvious reasons but a life lived for Christ, doesn't mean a life for Christ + 1, and that is a benefactor when we go to heaven. When you get to heaven, reproducing is no longer a necessity..or want...or desire.. we'll all be brothers and sisters focusing on the One we all love (or should love) more than anything or anyone else. Earth is a good place to practice that
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