Matthew 12:27 Keeps Me Going

[AshLioness]

Sin ruined my life.

 

[opengate07]

You are in my prayers. I'm originally from MA, but have lived in SC for the last 2 years. May the Lord Bless you in your walk and be your wisdom and comfort. I thought I would share this link with you.
I will sing - YouTube

 

[AshLioness]

Hello, nice to hear from a former MA resident. Unfortunately, I don't have a pair of headphones atm. However, I welcome prayer in the following areas:

To worship God in Spirit and truth (John 4:24). True repentance. A heart of flesh- depression robbed me of feeling, dignity which exacerbated my sexual sin, and clarity.

To stop practicing divination (Deuteronomy 18:9-13). To be free of demonic influence.

To recognize, reject, and avoid signs and wonders (Matthew 16:4). To stop worshipping angels.

To receive the Holy Spirit. To recognize the Holy Spirit's leading and the ability to distinguish it from the wiles of Satan; to avoid grieving the Holy Spirit (Job 33:14, Colossians 2:18; Ephesians 3:40).

To crave, understand, and believe pure, spiritual milk (1 Peter 2:2).To have faith in the real Christ.

To honor my parents; to choose my words carefully with them and anyone else I share my experiences with (Exodus 20:12, Colossians 3:20; Acts 20:28). In other words... for care, gentleness, discretion, and patience whenever the issue presents itself in conversation.

To feel and understand the love of the Lord. Living in a vacuum at college has been horrible and not knowing-worshipping the God of the Bible and yet and still praying leads to angel worship. It is not good for man to be alone.

 

[LottyH]

Hello and welcome to the forum, great to hear from you! This is a great place to get support and I'm sure you'll be a real blessing to others too. I'm really happy that you seem to be seeking the truth in all things and referring to the scriptures for guidance in this. I didn't read the post that you are referring but I'm glad to hear you want to keep occultic things out of your life. I pray psalm 91 over your life, that God will protect you and deliver you in whatever situations you may be in.

 

[AshLioness]

Thanks.

 

[LottyH]

No its not great to live in a vaccum, glad you come out to have a chat! I don't go to church either so this is one way I have fellowship with other Christians. And don't worry too much about any mistakes you may have made. I'm sure you'll be a great support to others, especially if you've been through hard times

 

[jannikitty]

oops, error..see next post.

 

[jannikitty]

Welcome to the forum and thanks for sharing with us. Sounds like you are truly seeking God. As you do so you can trust that He will continue to guide you and lead you in the path He wants for you. In time you will likely be led to seek fellowship in the company of other believers so to grow in love and in the understanding of the scriptures and, most of all, to worship God with others. Meanwhile, keep praying (as you said more than grace at meals) and trust God as He continues to guide you by His Word (scriptures) and Holy Spirit.

Praying for you.

 

[AshLioness]

Thank you for the welcome.

 

[Peripatetic]

I'm about to head out for the day. Eating and sleeping in the dorm hasn't done me any good- in fact, I believe my problems worsened because I had slipped into an eat-sleep-sadness routine sometime last week.

Welcome! It sounds like you are making great progress. You are absolutely right that living a disciplined life is more difficult on a college campus. I struggled in multiple areas of sin in college, even though I had been a Christian for as long as I could remember.

My advice would be to take it day by day. Christianity won't be the cure-all for sadness and suffering, but it can helps to improve our perspective and perseverance. You may still have to mange through depression sometimes, as many of us do. That said, I've found that focusing my attention on others rather than myself actually helps with my own contentment. I wish you the best!

 

[AshLioness]

Welcome! It sounds like you are making great progress. You are absolutely right that living a disciplined life is more difficult on a college campus. I struggled in multiple areas of sin in college, even though I had been a Christian for as long as I could remember.

My advice would be to take it day by day. Christianity won't be the cure-all for sadness and suffering, but it can helps to improve our perspective and perseverance. You may still have to mange through depression sometimes, as many of us do. That said, I've found that focusing my attention on others rather than myself actually helps with my own contentment. I wish you the best!

I have a habit of turning to legalism and downright asceticism sometimes, striving to get things "just right". That may or may not be me trying to be wise in my own eyes, but I do want to follow Jesus and try to shake the habit. Because of where I'm at (what with divination and the rest), I don't want to keep making mistakes... but I don't want to be paralyzed that I can't make sound (or even easy) decisions.

Now the verse, "All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away" (John 6:37) comes to mind. I definitely want to find Him and recognize Him consistently.

My day spent out of bed and active on campus was well spent. More enjoyable than sleeping and eating by a mile.

Peripatetic, I believe my perspective on the treatment of others has improved. There are bumps in the road and a few lapses and hiccups every now and then, but I am pleased.

 

[Peripatetic]

striving to get things "just right"

That's probably the hardest thing to balance for any Christian. Generally speaking, striving is good and Biblical. The lesson we need to learn (and I learned much later than I'd like to admit) is that there is no "just right" finish line. For example, humility is a lifetime pursuit. We'll never wake up and say, "yes, I have now completely defeated pride and arrived at humility."

We also have to learn that "just right" contentment is only temporary. We often believe, "if only I... xyz... then I'd be happy." Problem is, we'll eventually still feel anxiety and unhappiness even after xyz. But giving up on the permanent state of happiness is actually very liberating. Ironically, it's a way to more fully experience joy.

 

[AshLioness]

But giving up on the permanent state of happiness is actually very liberating. Ironically, it's a way to more fully experience joy.

I suppose that's the reason for my editing my op again. It'll stay that way though.

 

[AshLioness]

I feel lifeless. Like I'm dead, but still breathingm

 

[AshLioness]

How do i remove posts?

 

[LottyH]

I'm not sure how you delete posts, hopefully someone will let you know. Regarding your last post I remember when I was 10 years old and writing in my diary that I feel dead yet my body refuses to stop working. Its not a great experience to go through. Hang it there, sweetie, things will get better (((hugs!))))

 

[Tigger45]

You can't delete a post you can only go back and edit it.

Sounds like you're on the right path now. Evan if you trip up once in a while. Just keep pressing on and later on you'll look back at this time as a great time of growth evan though it doesn't seem like it now.