Hello all!!! Well I have not been actually diagnossed with bi polar,have been told I'm depressed with anxiety. My mom has bi polar type 2 and my Dad has type one and it doesn't take a scientist to figure out that I have it. I'm 22 so I think it;s starting to get a bit worse now. I just want to know what other people experience and how they behave,like what are some of the things they feel and do when they start to get a manic episode and are in the middle of one. I was just really depressed for about a week,all I could do was eat and sleep,haven't showered,locked myself in the room you know the whole deal and now I don't know what triggered it sometimes I think music does for some reson but my heart started palpitating and beating pretty fast,I feel pretty darn good,excited about something,not sure what though,I feel the need to go out and party,get all ready and dressed up and be around people or just run,I dunno,Ii just feel excited. Scince I have not showered in a bit I am not leaving right now but I am going to get ready and see if someone wants to go out or something. Whenever I feel llike I'm really excited I don't ever do anything stupid,well not in my eyes,I go away dancing(exotic dancing) and drink untill I don't member things(some people say that is stupid) I usually would just think I'm trying to have fun. I don't know does this sound like manic behavior or something. When I am not excited and trying to go out and party I'm locked in my house and wont leave. Also when you all drink booze does it bring out the manic or the depressed? Or do you drink when you are manic or depressed? Thanks,any infor apreciated
