wow.... honestly I thought the same thing just this afternoon..........
though I didn't feel real bad or anything........why go on.
1) God can heal you and you can rock this life with him.
2) no matter how often ýou fall he will love you and restore you and
show you his love in all its awesomeness

3) there are people who care for you...including me..
do you know that God's heart breakes with yours ??
4) no matter if you can believe it or not..he has a wonderful plan
for YOUR life and wants to use you
and if you don't desire hope, ask him to give you a desire for HIM.
5) Jesus won 2000 years ago for you..if you understand it or not,
you're not loosing when you're a child of God.
about where God came from......
someone once told me a story about erm little 'animals' on a sheet of paper. They only know to dimensions, like left and right.
Now tell them where rain comes from.
They won't know what you're talking about when you tell them it comes from 'above', you could tell them like it somes from right, but that'd only be a little part of the truth. God has more dimensions than we understand..hope that helps you a bit

eternety is something we can't get into our heads..doesn't mean its not logical or true.
God Bless ya bro ..still praying

Love ya so please keep it going....
Jesus at the end of the tunnel