- Jan 31, 2005
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Anyhow, I am so very thankful for the Lord and what he has done in my life. He has lead me through so very much. I am going to take this outlet to perhaps try to reach some people who either struggle like I have, or have been effected by some of my past mistakes. (Anyone who attened PU during 97-01 and part of CCC should remember me well. You see I am a person who struggled with an addiction for a long time. An addiction that had me so bonded that I didn't even realize the full effect much later.
The bondage that I had was an addiction to lying. I lied about everything..WHY? Lots of reasons....habbit, learned behavior, defense, fear, and all and all I didn't know how to tell the truth. I was afraid. Afraid that someone might see me the real me and reject me. However, didn't even know the real me. What did I lie about, everything. Ask me what I had for lunch I might have said Taco Bell, when really I grabbed a burger. I lied from the smallest of things to the biggest of things.
So some may ask why would I come on here and write such things. Why would I say this so candidly? First off, I can be so candid about it because it was WHO I WAS, not WHO I AM. See God has forgiven me and through some counsling and a lot of prayer I deal with it every day. I have learned that it is better to face things then to run. Even if it hurts, and I can't see any good or don't think that I can face it I can.
Second, I want anyone who knew me then to know that I am truly sorry for what all I said over those years. You see for me to truly get over and move on from that part of my life I must fogive myself, and I hope that this will help me in that process. I know that God has forgiven me, but I have to forgive myself and move on. I need the forgiveness of a few people who I had contact with during those years of my life, and I need them to forgive me. Perhaps, they never will, and I will and can face that, however, I need to give them the oppertunity, and I need to move on.
My life is amazing now. Yeah it's hard and I struggle, but for the first time in my life I am staying put. I am committed to God, and a wonderful church family, who knows my struggles and prays me through the difficult times.
I write this to the person that perhaps has stuggled as I have. Perhaps, you see no other way then to lie....maybe it is an overwhelming addiction that you don't even understand yourself. You don't want to lie and yet you do anyway.
Well, I am here to let you know that you can and will get through this. It may seem like more than you can handle, and you know what? It is, however, with God's help you can overcome it. God, has made us overcomers of sin. Conquerers, and it is time we start living the victory that we possess.
I have rambled on enough for one setting. However, I really feel passionate about this subject. I think a lot of people struggle with lying because they don't look at it as a major thing. However, watch out because it can slowly overcome you. Remember that Satan is the father of lies, so when we lie we are speaking his language. I have chosen not to be his spokesperson anymore. WILL YOU CHOSE THE SAME.
The bondage that I had was an addiction to lying. I lied about everything..WHY? Lots of reasons....habbit, learned behavior, defense, fear, and all and all I didn't know how to tell the truth. I was afraid. Afraid that someone might see me the real me and reject me. However, didn't even know the real me. What did I lie about, everything. Ask me what I had for lunch I might have said Taco Bell, when really I grabbed a burger. I lied from the smallest of things to the biggest of things.
So some may ask why would I come on here and write such things. Why would I say this so candidly? First off, I can be so candid about it because it was WHO I WAS, not WHO I AM. See God has forgiven me and through some counsling and a lot of prayer I deal with it every day. I have learned that it is better to face things then to run. Even if it hurts, and I can't see any good or don't think that I can face it I can.
Second, I want anyone who knew me then to know that I am truly sorry for what all I said over those years. You see for me to truly get over and move on from that part of my life I must fogive myself, and I hope that this will help me in that process. I know that God has forgiven me, but I have to forgive myself and move on. I need the forgiveness of a few people who I had contact with during those years of my life, and I need them to forgive me. Perhaps, they never will, and I will and can face that, however, I need to give them the oppertunity, and I need to move on.
My life is amazing now. Yeah it's hard and I struggle, but for the first time in my life I am staying put. I am committed to God, and a wonderful church family, who knows my struggles and prays me through the difficult times.
I write this to the person that perhaps has stuggled as I have. Perhaps, you see no other way then to lie....maybe it is an overwhelming addiction that you don't even understand yourself. You don't want to lie and yet you do anyway.
Well, I am here to let you know that you can and will get through this. It may seem like more than you can handle, and you know what? It is, however, with God's help you can overcome it. God, has made us overcomers of sin. Conquerers, and it is time we start living the victory that we possess.
I have rambled on enough for one setting. However, I really feel passionate about this subject. I think a lot of people struggle with lying because they don't look at it as a major thing. However, watch out because it can slowly overcome you. Remember that Satan is the father of lies, so when we lie we are speaking his language. I have chosen not to be his spokesperson anymore. WILL YOU CHOSE THE SAME.
