I had been feeling a bit more motivated of late, but losing it again. Discouraged. Don't know why.
Events in the world leave me depressed if I think too much on them. Particularly being too informed I think makes prayer difficult. I'd rather not know everything that goes on so I don't bother following much news.
I draw comfort from the Psalms mainly. But I wouldn't be so depressed if I had a one or two meaningful relationships. Not looking for someone to complain about life to, God knows, just companionship, with people I am not too distance from in interests / outlook.
How do you keep going?
I can recommend only what has been tried and has been successful for my wife and myself. There are at least two Churches where the sacraments of healing, penance, and most importantly the Eucharist are available as often as daily, offering the very real presence of the body, blood, soul, and divinity of Jesus Christ, and conveying His sanctifying grace through His holy spirit to the faithful. For my wife and I, who took nearly 40 years to discover God's precious healing gift to mankind, while we wait in blessed hope for His return, this has been a game changer. In every way. A miracle for us really, particularly my wife, obviating further need for SSRI's, ECT, and other man made techniques. God's grace is astounding, and offered freely.
Now looking back after a few years, and seeing how much different our lives are, I am often moved to the edge of tears in gratitude to our Lord and savior. I now read some scripture passages which were very difficult for me to understand before, with a new understanding:
Matthew 11:28 Come to me, all you that labour and are burdened; I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon yourselves, and learn from me; I am gentle and humble of heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
John 6:54 Whereupon Jesus said to them, Believe me when I tell you this; you can have no life in yourselves, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man, and drink his blood. 55 The man who eats my flesh and drinks my blood enjoys eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day. 56 My flesh is real food, my blood is real drink. 57 He who eats my flesh, and drinks my blood, lives continually in me, and I in him. 58 As I live because of the Father, the living Father who has sent me, so he who eats me will live, in his turn, because of me. 59 Such is the bread which has come down from heaven; it is not as it was with your fathers, who ate manna and died none the less; the man who eats this bread will live eternally.
1 Cor 10:15 I am speaking to you as men of good sense; weigh my words for yourselves. 16 We have a cup that we bless; is not this cup we bless a participation in Christs blood? Is not the bread we break a participation in Christs body? 17 The one bread makes us one body, though we are many in number; the same bread is shared by all.
1 Cor 11:23 The tradition which I received from the Lord, and handed on to you, is that the Lord Jesus, on the night when he was being betrayed, took bread, 24 and gave thanks, and broke it, and said, Take, eat; this is my body, given up for you. Do this for a commemoration of me.[6] 25 And so with the cup, when supper was ended, This cup, he said, is the new testament, in my blood. Do this, whenever you drink it, for a commemoration of me. 26 So it is the Lords death that you are heralding, whenever you eat this bread and drink this cup, until he comes.
Matt 26:26 And while they were still at table, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and broke it, and gave it to his disciples, saying, Take, eat, this is my body. 27 Then he took a cup, and offered thanks, and gave it to them, saying, Drink, all of you, of this; 28 for this is my blood, of the new testament, shed for many, to the remission of sins.
Mark 14:22 And while they were still at table, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, Take this; this is my body. 23 Then he took a cup, and offered thanks, and gave it to them, and they all drank of it. And he said, 24 This is my blood of the new testament, shed for many.
Luke 22:15 And he said to them, I have longed and longed to share this paschal meal with you before my passion; 16 I tell you, I shall not eat it again, till it finds its fulfilment in the kingdom of God. 17 And he took a cup, and blessed it, and said, Take this and share it among you; 18 I tell you, I shall not drink of the fruit of the vine again, till the kingdom of God has come. 19 Then he took bread, and blessed and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, This is my body, given for you; do this for a commemoration of me. 20 And so with the cup, when supper was ended, This cup, he said, is the new testament, in my blood which is to be shed for you.
Didache (Christian document of circulation attributed to the Apostles, circa 70 AD)
9 Concerning the Eucharist
9:1 Concerning the Eucharist, give thanks this way.
9:2 First, concerning the cup: We thank you, our Father, for the holy vine of David your servant, which you made known to us through Jesus your servant. To you be the glory forever.
9:3 Next, concerning the broken bread: We thank you, our Father, for the life and knowledge which you made known to us through Jesus your servant. To you be the glory forever.
9:4 Even as this broken bread was scattered over the hills, and was gathered together and became one, so let your church be gathered together from the ends of the earth into your kingdom. To you is the glory and the power through Jesus Christ forever.
9:5 Allow no one to eat or drink of your Eucharist, unless they have been baptized in the name of the Lord. For concerning this, the Lord has said, "Do not give what is holy to dogs."
Also, of course prayer. Prayer being our conversations with God. We speak our concerns, of course, but also need to have times dedicated to silence and meditation on His Word, in order to hear the answers that God wishes to give you.
I am a prayer "warrior" at another site, and I will take your intentions and difficulties with me to prayer, and to the most Holy Eucharist today as I join with the body of Christ to give thanks and receive in turn, His graces.
May God bless you, and help you to find the light of Christ in everyday matters, and in all you see and do.