please pray for my jobs. i have lost three jobs in the past year and a half. some good things happened to me too but i feel messed up right now. i constantly walk around in a cloud of shame, condemnation, guilt and worry that there might be something wrong with me and feeling like a burden to those around me helping me. i did well in college, but not above 3.5. i score well on aptittude tests and for tests for job interviews but i can't seem to keep a job. before i lost my first job 2005 i was doing well. working for companies for years at a time, not geting fired, and getting raises and promotions. the first job ended because two girls lied about me to managers and the managers listened to them instead of seeing me for themselves. they were also just not good managers. i was a front desk receptionist for a dr's office. the second job i was a nanny for a lady and on my first day lost the job because she treated me like the parents treat teachers....unrealistic and overly hard on them. i didn't do anything wrong. she just created some problem out of nothing , and that was it bye bye. third job, everything looked great and then seven days later i lost the job for no apparent reason. i was a photographer at a photography place. she even said there was nothing wrong with my photography. at jobs i am notoriously sensitive (meaning constantly finding ways to please whoever i work for). most places like this. they felt it meant i took initiative. i am 28, & never have i had a manager complain about this until the dr's office and the photography place. they confused it with a lack of confidence and lack of taking initiative. they said my constant question asking meant i did not think for myself. quite the opposite. i was trying to figure out many things so i could do a better job at work and figuring out what to do on my own and ran into a question i could not have known the answer to on my own. i know i cannot beat myself over the head for trying hard at work and being confused by them for something else. and for learning the hard way some people will see me eagerness to please the wrong way so i need to change the way i show all manager types my interest to please......but somehow i still feel so bad. like i am a failure. and like may be i am defective as a person somehow to be able to care for myself on my own.