[FONT="]I just want to give up, I just cant live like this anymore. Im 15 years old, and no one I can talk to understands how I feel. I was born a girl, but it feels so wrong, its not right and was never meant to be. God made a mistake 
I know I was supposed to be a boy. Ever since I was 3 years old, I just knew it. Every night I cry myself to sleep knowing that Ill never be able to fix my problem 110%. I dress in boy clothes and tell people Im male, but ofcourse, my voice and other features are off putting.
My mum and dad know how I feel, but they dont seem to approve of my decision. I am seeing a therapist, but just feel as if Im not getting anywhere, and am losing all hope. The worst thing is, I feel as if God hates me for wanting this. I feel like he hasnt been there anymore ever since I came out of the closet. I feel so alone, cause thats truly what I am. A stupid little kid with no friends!
The only good news is, that I now have a job, which means I now have money. I signed up for a paypal account and am just waiting for my bank statement to come in the mail so I can buy the chest binder I have been wanting for months! Please just pray that my bank statement turns up soon, and please pray that my therapist will refer me to a special doctor so can start taking hormone injections. A dream come true!
God isnt listening to me, and at the moment I really just want to die. [/FONT]
I know I was supposed to be a boy. Ever since I was 3 years old, I just knew it. Every night I cry myself to sleep knowing that Ill never be able to fix my problem 110%. I dress in boy clothes and tell people Im male, but ofcourse, my voice and other features are off putting.My mum and dad know how I feel, but they dont seem to approve of my decision. I am seeing a therapist, but just feel as if Im not getting anywhere, and am losing all hope. The worst thing is, I feel as if God hates me for wanting this. I feel like he hasnt been there anymore ever since I came out of the closet. I feel so alone, cause thats truly what I am. A stupid little kid with no friends!
The only good news is, that I now have a job, which means I now have money. I signed up for a paypal account and am just waiting for my bank statement to come in the mail so I can buy the chest binder I have been wanting for months! Please just pray that my bank statement turns up soon, and please pray that my therapist will refer me to a special doctor so can start taking hormone injections. A dream come true!
God isnt listening to me, and at the moment I really just want to die. [/FONT]
Please don't give up at 15. I don't want to sound condescending, but the teen years were the worst in my life; and I made it through them. You can make it through this, I'm sure of it. You probably won't be able to start the gender change process for a couple of years yet, until your body has stopped growing, the changes your body goes through until you're about 18 - 20 need to finish before they can safely start your process. 
