I am looking for some honest advice. Feel free to tell it like it is
I am 26 and have been single for about a year, I'm not big into the going out and trying to meet women at bars and such so I decided to try out online dating back in November. I told myself that I wasn't going to settle for just anyone and that I was going to keep my options open. I've went out on multiple promising dates since then but I didn't feel a good connection with any of them once we met so I decided to stop looking and see what happened.
Mental Check list for what I desire in a woman (i'm pretty simple lol)
-physical attraction obviously-loves God and isn't afraid to tell the world-good communicator-not afraid to be goofy-isn't rude to waiters/waitresses-wants kids-isn't afraid to talk about their feelings
At the beginning of February I met a woman (L), we went out on a date and connected immediately. She has a 3 year old son (i love kids). A simple Friday date turned into another date Saturday night and once again on Sunday evening. She is beautiful, caring, smart and compassionate. We talked about our life goals and dreams, we talked about our faith and what we want in a relationship. Things were going great! I honestly felt like someone was reading my mind for what I wanted in a woman and put her in front of me. L has a steady job, she raises her son without child support or help from others, she speaks 2 languages, volunteers at a summer camp for people with learning dissabilities (this is huge for me because my sister has learning dissabilities) On the third date (sunday) L really opened up to me and told me that she was falling in love with me and it scared her because it was so soon. She said everything felt so right and that it felt like we had met years ago. I couldn't agree more! This went on for almost 3 weeks after meeting in person for the first time. after 2 weeks and 6 dates of getting to know each other, she introduced me to her son, her entire family and her closest friends (things were still going great) the following weekend we had made plans for L to meet my family. I wouldn't classify myself a super sensitive guy but I will say that I tend to notice when things are different. Subtle things like body language, tone of voice and even the way someone texts back. The whole week leading up to meeting my family, things seemed off. It just wasn't the same. I brushed it off for a couple of days thinking she was either busy or just nervous to meet my family. Thursday came around and she was still acting odd. When I asked her about it, she said I was over thinking it and that everything was fine. L went from telling me that she was head over heels in love with me, that I was the guy she had been praying for and that she could picture a future with me to now barely saying 10 words all day, dodging talking about what was going on and what seemed like ignoring me. I decided to give her space the rest of the day Thursday and most of Friday until she called me Friday afternoon (around 1). She apologized for being distant and thanked me for not blowing up her phone and giving her space without her having to ask for it. She asked me to stop by after work that day because she missed me, I told her I would be there around 7:00. 5:00rolls around, she says she has to stop by her friends house to help her with some crafts and if we can change it to 9 to which i said yes. 8 comes with a text saying she needed a night to herself to relax and that we would talk tomorrow. I said sure, that's fine. I decided to stay in Friday night and clean up the house a bit instead of going out with friends. She called me again at 11 apologizing once more and saying please come over, I miss you and just want to see you before I meet your family tomorrow. I hesitated but agreed. Got there around midnight, walked into her apartment. I didn't get the usual hug (no biggie) but i didn't even get a "hi", we went to the couch where she sat at one end texting non stop and i sat at the other. i tried talking to her and seeing what was going on. after 30 minutes of silence and only getting 5 words out of her, i told her i was going to give her some more space and if she wasn't ready to meet my family yet that we could reschedule. she responded with "K".. didn't say bye or anything, I spent the hour drive home racking my brain trying to figure out what in the world was going on. the next morning she said she "forgot" she had to work and that we would have to reschedule meeting my family. not a single word exchanged all day saturday. Sunday she told me she needed time to think. I said okay and let her have her space (i haven't always been able to do this) in prior years, i'd be a insecure worry wart, calling/texting and asking what was wrong and how i could change to be better for them. but past failed relationships taught me to actually give them space. L was the first woman to get me to open up and not hold back anything. Up until that point she was the most loving and wonderful woman i had ever met. we had soooo many similarities. i honestly pictured my future with her and her son in it. a week went by without hearing from her. sent her a text after a week saying that i was thinking about her and that i hoped she was doing well. she responded and we started to text again(said she was too busy to call or see eachother) i figured she was trying to let me down easy instead of just ending things so i decided i wasn't going to be a doormat for her to come and go. I wasn't going to go out of my way to see/talk to her. if she wanted to see or talk to me, she would have to initiate it.
2 weeks later, I logged back onto the dating app to close my account. I had quite a few messages, i didn't plan on opening any of them but one jumped out at me. we will call her (S). we exchanged messages and instantly clicked. we continued to chat back and forth for a week and set a date that friday to meet. during that week L was reaching out to me more.. opening up to me again, bringing all my feelings i had for her back to the surface. I was very reserved with L and tried not to get to emotionally invested in her again until she showed that it was real this time (everyone makes mistakes, i at least wanted to hear her out before i moved on completely). Friday comes and i meet S. Once again, it was if someone was reading my mind for what i wanted in a woman, except this time it was different. S and i spent 6 hours at the same place just talking. this woman is absolutely fascinating. she is a nurse, single mother to a 5 year old. loves Jesus, loves her church, and she also volunteers at a home fore people with learning disabilities. 2 of those hours were spent talking about what we were studying in scripture. we talked about how many kids we want and everything in between. S did tell me that she can't have anymore kids due to health reasons but that she wanted to adopt. she admitted that a couple years prior, she has suffered from depression and that she received help for it. I appreciated how honest and upfront she was. once again a simple friday date turned into a date on saturday and sunday.. Just like L, S told me on the third date that she was falling for me and could see a future with me. at this point, i feel like i'm in some sort of crazy romantic comedy movie. in a month and a halfs time, two girls told me they were in love with me after 3 dates. it was just crazy in my mind, because the feelings were mutual with me.. for both of them.
the monday after the 3rd date with S, L had texted me.. pouring out everything. apologizing for leaving me in the dark. she said that she got scared because "things were getting too real, too quick" and that she was afraid to get hurt so she put up her walls so she could process everything.... my brain was officially mush lol i didn't and still don't know how to process any of this. everyone has their flaws, everyone makes mistakes. i've prayed about it and i continue to pray about it. since november, i have went on numerous dates with numerous people with dud after dud. and then BAM, two women drop into my life with everything i have ever wanted in a partner. I connect with both of them more than anyone i have ever met in my entire life. they are both hard working. they both make me feel things i've never felt before. this may sound dumb and immature but i honestly don't know what to do. i can picture a future with either of them. i don't want to string anyone along, i need to cut ties with one of them but i'm not sure how to process it. i'm big on communication, L seems to struggle with this a bit. I know it's not her fault but i still think about the fact that S can't have children. both of these women stimulate me intellectually and emotionally more than anyone i've encountered. L and S both are beautiful, loving, compassionate, single mothers who raised their sons on their own with no help, both are very well educated with great jobs, and both are involved with people with special needs
i know this is a lot and is very scattered/jumbled. i'm not sure if i'm looking for a deciding answer from anyone on what to. i've never posted anything like this to an online forum. any advice would be greatly appreciated
I am 26 and have been single for about a year, I'm not big into the going out and trying to meet women at bars and such so I decided to try out online dating back in November. I told myself that I wasn't going to settle for just anyone and that I was going to keep my options open. I've went out on multiple promising dates since then but I didn't feel a good connection with any of them once we met so I decided to stop looking and see what happened.
Mental Check list for what I desire in a woman (i'm pretty simple lol)
-physical attraction obviously-loves God and isn't afraid to tell the world-good communicator-not afraid to be goofy-isn't rude to waiters/waitresses-wants kids-isn't afraid to talk about their feelings
At the beginning of February I met a woman (L), we went out on a date and connected immediately. She has a 3 year old son (i love kids). A simple Friday date turned into another date Saturday night and once again on Sunday evening. She is beautiful, caring, smart and compassionate. We talked about our life goals and dreams, we talked about our faith and what we want in a relationship. Things were going great! I honestly felt like someone was reading my mind for what I wanted in a woman and put her in front of me. L has a steady job, she raises her son without child support or help from others, she speaks 2 languages, volunteers at a summer camp for people with learning dissabilities (this is huge for me because my sister has learning dissabilities) On the third date (sunday) L really opened up to me and told me that she was falling in love with me and it scared her because it was so soon. She said everything felt so right and that it felt like we had met years ago. I couldn't agree more! This went on for almost 3 weeks after meeting in person for the first time. after 2 weeks and 6 dates of getting to know each other, she introduced me to her son, her entire family and her closest friends (things were still going great) the following weekend we had made plans for L to meet my family. I wouldn't classify myself a super sensitive guy but I will say that I tend to notice when things are different. Subtle things like body language, tone of voice and even the way someone texts back. The whole week leading up to meeting my family, things seemed off. It just wasn't the same. I brushed it off for a couple of days thinking she was either busy or just nervous to meet my family. Thursday came around and she was still acting odd. When I asked her about it, she said I was over thinking it and that everything was fine. L went from telling me that she was head over heels in love with me, that I was the guy she had been praying for and that she could picture a future with me to now barely saying 10 words all day, dodging talking about what was going on and what seemed like ignoring me. I decided to give her space the rest of the day Thursday and most of Friday until she called me Friday afternoon (around 1). She apologized for being distant and thanked me for not blowing up her phone and giving her space without her having to ask for it. She asked me to stop by after work that day because she missed me, I told her I would be there around 7:00. 5:00rolls around, she says she has to stop by her friends house to help her with some crafts and if we can change it to 9 to which i said yes. 8 comes with a text saying she needed a night to herself to relax and that we would talk tomorrow. I said sure, that's fine. I decided to stay in Friday night and clean up the house a bit instead of going out with friends. She called me again at 11 apologizing once more and saying please come over, I miss you and just want to see you before I meet your family tomorrow. I hesitated but agreed. Got there around midnight, walked into her apartment. I didn't get the usual hug (no biggie) but i didn't even get a "hi", we went to the couch where she sat at one end texting non stop and i sat at the other. i tried talking to her and seeing what was going on. after 30 minutes of silence and only getting 5 words out of her, i told her i was going to give her some more space and if she wasn't ready to meet my family yet that we could reschedule. she responded with "K".. didn't say bye or anything, I spent the hour drive home racking my brain trying to figure out what in the world was going on. the next morning she said she "forgot" she had to work and that we would have to reschedule meeting my family. not a single word exchanged all day saturday. Sunday she told me she needed time to think. I said okay and let her have her space (i haven't always been able to do this) in prior years, i'd be a insecure worry wart, calling/texting and asking what was wrong and how i could change to be better for them. but past failed relationships taught me to actually give them space. L was the first woman to get me to open up and not hold back anything. Up until that point she was the most loving and wonderful woman i had ever met. we had soooo many similarities. i honestly pictured my future with her and her son in it. a week went by without hearing from her. sent her a text after a week saying that i was thinking about her and that i hoped she was doing well. she responded and we started to text again(said she was too busy to call or see eachother) i figured she was trying to let me down easy instead of just ending things so i decided i wasn't going to be a doormat for her to come and go. I wasn't going to go out of my way to see/talk to her. if she wanted to see or talk to me, she would have to initiate it.
2 weeks later, I logged back onto the dating app to close my account. I had quite a few messages, i didn't plan on opening any of them but one jumped out at me. we will call her (S). we exchanged messages and instantly clicked. we continued to chat back and forth for a week and set a date that friday to meet. during that week L was reaching out to me more.. opening up to me again, bringing all my feelings i had for her back to the surface. I was very reserved with L and tried not to get to emotionally invested in her again until she showed that it was real this time (everyone makes mistakes, i at least wanted to hear her out before i moved on completely). Friday comes and i meet S. Once again, it was if someone was reading my mind for what i wanted in a woman, except this time it was different. S and i spent 6 hours at the same place just talking. this woman is absolutely fascinating. she is a nurse, single mother to a 5 year old. loves Jesus, loves her church, and she also volunteers at a home fore people with learning disabilities. 2 of those hours were spent talking about what we were studying in scripture. we talked about how many kids we want and everything in between. S did tell me that she can't have anymore kids due to health reasons but that she wanted to adopt. she admitted that a couple years prior, she has suffered from depression and that she received help for it. I appreciated how honest and upfront she was. once again a simple friday date turned into a date on saturday and sunday.. Just like L, S told me on the third date that she was falling for me and could see a future with me. at this point, i feel like i'm in some sort of crazy romantic comedy movie. in a month and a halfs time, two girls told me they were in love with me after 3 dates. it was just crazy in my mind, because the feelings were mutual with me.. for both of them.
the monday after the 3rd date with S, L had texted me.. pouring out everything. apologizing for leaving me in the dark. she said that she got scared because "things were getting too real, too quick" and that she was afraid to get hurt so she put up her walls so she could process everything.... my brain was officially mush lol i didn't and still don't know how to process any of this. everyone has their flaws, everyone makes mistakes. i've prayed about it and i continue to pray about it. since november, i have went on numerous dates with numerous people with dud after dud. and then BAM, two women drop into my life with everything i have ever wanted in a partner. I connect with both of them more than anyone i have ever met in my entire life. they are both hard working. they both make me feel things i've never felt before. this may sound dumb and immature but i honestly don't know what to do. i can picture a future with either of them. i don't want to string anyone along, i need to cut ties with one of them but i'm not sure how to process it. i'm big on communication, L seems to struggle with this a bit. I know it's not her fault but i still think about the fact that S can't have children. both of these women stimulate me intellectually and emotionally more than anyone i've encountered. L and S both are beautiful, loving, compassionate, single mothers who raised their sons on their own with no help, both are very well educated with great jobs, and both are involved with people with special needs
i know this is a lot and is very scattered/jumbled. i'm not sure if i'm looking for a deciding answer from anyone on what to. i've never posted anything like this to an online forum. any advice would be greatly appreciated