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This is a bit complicated, so I'm looking for some guidance! I really need to find a church I can call home and be a part of (I'm in the UK just outside London).
So, I've been a Christian all my life. I was brought up standard C of E, but found prescriptive worship frankly uninspiring and a bit boring. I dislike reading loud what you should say. So, years ago, when I was a student I joined and loved the Open Brethren where I was baptised again. Then I moved towns, did not like the OB Chur h here, joined the Plymouth Brethren but left when there was a big split & frankly I felt things were not right & I was being used as a pawn and now totally disagree with their doctrines.
I'm a bellringer (a very peculiar British thing!) and sometimes go to church where I ring. But the Vicar became 'unringable' and put so many obstacles
In our way, & I never ever felt at home. So I more or less stopped going to church and drifted away.
Lately I have been experiencing a big revival after a huge test of my faith and now feel I want to be part of a church again. I just love what God is doing in my lifeand how He is speaking to me.
Right now I am dipping in & out of all sorts but belonging nowhere! I sometimes go to traditional Eucharist at the Cathedral, I love going to pop up prayer spaces where God has worked some true miracles and sometimes still go back to where I ring, but last time the preacher started going on about how Paul was confused and got stuff wrong which jarred a lot. Due to my weird shift patterns I can't commit to anything regular but I just see what's available, so much of my worship happens during the week (also my family quite against 'religion').
I have never been charismatic and this used to actually scare me. But recently I have become very moved by the Holy Spirit and feel I am becoming more charismatic, for example I recently experienced tongues and have been both singing in tongues and had an amazing interpretation of someone else speaking in tongues.
I am still terrified of walking into a potential new church & wondering what on earth I am doing being there, then getting 'swooped upon' as a newbie!
I've been praying for guidance but still waiting patiently!
Against all this my family are saying stuff like 'we never see you so don't go all religious and be away from us on days we get to actually see you'
I'm kind of a new, old Christian!
Any advice on what may suit me would be welcome. For me it should be simple, I want to worship God and have fellowship with other Christians who I can discuss the amazing things that are happening to me with and help interpret this amazing revival I'm going through & work out what God's purpose is for me, I know He is telling me to do something and make some big changes! Loud and clear I'm getting the message that I must be part of a church I feel at home in..,. But just so scared to get out there and taste different places!
Anyone got any thoughts or views about how/ where I can start, of course I am praying for guidance but meanwhile doing nothing which doesn't seem right!
Thank you for reading this long post if you've got this far. Look forward to hearing some ideas!
So, I've been a Christian all my life. I was brought up standard C of E, but found prescriptive worship frankly uninspiring and a bit boring. I dislike reading loud what you should say. So, years ago, when I was a student I joined and loved the Open Brethren where I was baptised again. Then I moved towns, did not like the OB Chur h here, joined the Plymouth Brethren but left when there was a big split & frankly I felt things were not right & I was being used as a pawn and now totally disagree with their doctrines.
I'm a bellringer (a very peculiar British thing!) and sometimes go to church where I ring. But the Vicar became 'unringable' and put so many obstacles
In our way, & I never ever felt at home. So I more or less stopped going to church and drifted away.
Lately I have been experiencing a big revival after a huge test of my faith and now feel I want to be part of a church again. I just love what God is doing in my lifeand how He is speaking to me.
Right now I am dipping in & out of all sorts but belonging nowhere! I sometimes go to traditional Eucharist at the Cathedral, I love going to pop up prayer spaces where God has worked some true miracles and sometimes still go back to where I ring, but last time the preacher started going on about how Paul was confused and got stuff wrong which jarred a lot. Due to my weird shift patterns I can't commit to anything regular but I just see what's available, so much of my worship happens during the week (also my family quite against 'religion').
I have never been charismatic and this used to actually scare me. But recently I have become very moved by the Holy Spirit and feel I am becoming more charismatic, for example I recently experienced tongues and have been both singing in tongues and had an amazing interpretation of someone else speaking in tongues.
I am still terrified of walking into a potential new church & wondering what on earth I am doing being there, then getting 'swooped upon' as a newbie!
I've been praying for guidance but still waiting patiently!
Against all this my family are saying stuff like 'we never see you so don't go all religious and be away from us on days we get to actually see you'
I'm kind of a new, old Christian!
Any advice on what may suit me would be welcome. For me it should be simple, I want to worship God and have fellowship with other Christians who I can discuss the amazing things that are happening to me with and help interpret this amazing revival I'm going through & work out what God's purpose is for me, I know He is telling me to do something and make some big changes! Loud and clear I'm getting the message that I must be part of a church I feel at home in..,. But just so scared to get out there and taste different places!
Anyone got any thoughts or views about how/ where I can start, of course I am praying for guidance but meanwhile doing nothing which doesn't seem right!
Thank you for reading this long post if you've got this far. Look forward to hearing some ideas!