I have been unemployed for over a year now, actually for about two years. I have had to move back in with my parents. I have a BS in Engineering, I have good experience but nobody is willing to give me a chance. I have applied to hundreds of jobs in my field and hundreds of jobs outside of my field (probably more than a thousand jobs) both in my home town and out of state. I have applied to many jobs that only require a high school diploma. I have been to many interviews and have even had several job offers that have later fallen through or been retracted for various reasons. Moreover I spent time in scripture, in serving at church, in prayer, and in seeking God's will. People keep telling me things like "I'm sure God will put you in the position he wants you in" I have been hearing that for a long time now. The truth is that I have been at the end of my rope for a long time; I have been praying and waiting on God's Will and trying different venues that all end in failure. I have thought about suicide many times. I feel so hopeless, at one point I was successful and driven but now every road I see as a dead end. What I want to know is why is God so absent? I have spent a lot of time in prayer and I know others have prayed as well, but God doesn't answer.